Midnight's Poems

[Midnight]

(i have 212 so far if i miss counted tell me)

Moveing Slowly (was made 6-14-06 at 12:06)

Moving slowly through the crowd

Feet never touching the ground

Gliding slowly through the air

A hand extended out

No face can be seen

All you can see is the black cape over me

Stealing your soul

Eating your life

I'm in your dreams

Scaring you

Walking slowly towards you

I reach out my hand to touch you

Gripping your neck, I hear you cry

Laughing as you slowly die

Ripping you soul away

You're coming with me today


Dead Things

Dead things laying around

All over and across the ground

Heads, body, toes, and feet

Laying everywhere, isn't it neat

Death walks here with a smile


Would you stay awhile

Dead things laying around

All over and across the ground

Blood dripping on the floor

I think, I just herd a knock at the door

Walking slowly, I hear a cry

Something I can't let get by

Dead things laying around

All over and across the ground

People screaming

None are dreaming

Till the day is done

Come wont you have some fun


The Dagger
Why do you look at me like that and smile at me when you know I am broken yet again. I squish you tightly as if to kill you. Gripping you tightly I stare at you hard and wonder what brought me to this. Was it the past? Was it the present? Could I take anymore or could I just plunge you deep into my heart with your sharp, metal, cold point into my soul.


Stop staring at me like I can keep going on like this. With false hope or go on knowing I won't ever be happy with the way I am going or should I care what I am doing and throw myself at every single person passing my way just because I am wanting and lonely. Should I just stab myself and listen to you laugh as I slowly die against you knowing you were always there waiting to taste my blood on your blade. Laying there on my bar waiting for me to finally pick you up and end it all and now I laugh as I hold you close to me thinking of what I really want and what I am doing. "Is it worth it?", I ask it as I slowly get ready to do it then I drop you and listen to you cry as you fall upon the cold, brown floor, yelling at me that your hungry for what I was about to do. I turn and leave you and leave the next day till I see you the next time and do the same because I am stronger then that but need just a little push to keep me going. Thanks dagger you really helped.



The Dagger Part II
Running to get you, the tears streaming down my face. Screaming and yelling at nothing but the air as I run towards you, pick you up and grip you tightly. I shake you madly and scream at you, asking you what I did to have to come back to you. I grip you tightly and listen to you screaming back at me. I see you grinning as I put you against my neck. I look up at the light thinking about what I am about to do "It's only hell they say I'm going to." I tell myself and smile. I tilt my head back still gripping you tightly as I bring your blade hard against my neck. In one quick pull I feel the blood running down my neck and hear you laughing at her as I choke against my own blood. Putting a hand against my neck, I fall to my knees. Still holding you close to me, I lift my hand slightly and see the red blood dripping down my hand and I smile "No one would find me anyway." I say as I take my last breath and fall to my bed. I close my eyes and grip the dagger tighter. The room goes black the room grows still and quiet and cold a girl lays there with a dagger in her hand, her neck cut and a smile on her face her room is dark and cold and the light is out. Blood is covering the floor as they open the door and looked down at her they wonder what happened to bring her to such limits. Life is hard and no one wants to live forever. They took her and burried her under an old willow tree with her family, the only ones that ever loved her.


In A Bed of Love

(blade and flash )

i layed there kissing him deeply his dark purple eyes staring hard at me as he rubbed my stomach loveingly and hard feeling all of my muscles as i layed there on my back him leaning against me on the bed we where both naked as he pressed his dick against my leg i could feel it trobbing there against my tight as i moaned against him my tounge in his mouth his tounge running roughtly over mine as he grasp my dick slightly and pressed his thumb against the tip i moaned harder and breathed harder into the kiss as his knees pressed against my tights slightly i closed my eyes as he pinned me there smikring at me as he kissed me my heart was beating fast i felt like my world was spinning and god i loved it without a word to me he flipped me fast and pressed to fingures in my hole as he now sucked and kissed at my neck god he was like lighting against me going fast and doing everything right god i loved it he pinned me against the bed. i loved that to as he moved his fingures in and out slightly as he jacked me off more and got me ready for him after awhile without warning i felt his big hard throbbing dick against my hole when he moved his fingures and he thrusted slowly into me i cryed out loudly and he nipped at my neck gripping my shoulders he lifted himself up and deep inside me i breathed into the pillow close to me the best i could as he started to thrust hard against me god it burned and stung like hell,but i loved it anyways i could fell a bit of precum drip down onto his fingures as he jacked me off as well he flickered his tounge against my neck driving me crazy i screamed and cryed his name as he went. man he was good and rough just the way i liked it and was used to it after awhile i started screaming louder as the bed rocked like mad and he went harder until he cummed deeply into me and i cummd onto the bed deeply as well and he bit into my neck and drank from me ohhhh god i loved it as i relaxed as he thrusted a bit more into me and then jsut stayed in me as he feed off my blood god i loved that to and i moaned breathing hard against him.

Screaming Loudly
Screaming loudly


Struggling there


Held by ropes and chains


A blind fold over my eyes


Struggling more


Screaming louder


Hands tied down, over my head


Feet tied down on the bed


Hands running slowly up my thighs


Screaming louder, I close my eyes


Jerking harder trying to get away


He grips me around the neck, chocking me


Brings his hand against my head hoping to knock me out


Struggling more as hands move farther up


I scream for help


But no one comes


My door is locked


The lights are off


After awhile all is quiet


A girl lays there on the bed


Passed out or dead, no one would know


The guy is still in the room


Looking down at her beautiful body


Smirking to himself he presses on


Not caring what would happen after word


A little while later his still there


He stopped, but sits there


Smiling down at the girl that lays there


To be dead or just passed out


No one would know


He whips the blood from his hands


Puts a gag in her mouth, opens the door and leaves her there. Turning around he slapped a lock on the door locking it shut tightly. Taking the keys he leaves.


Fire In My Eyes

Fire in my eyes

Burning up the lies

Flames burning them slowly

Flickering against the pain

Fire burning in my eyes

Burning all of those lies

Moving slowly across the ways

Counting all the days

There’s a fire burning in my eyes

Slowly burning all the lies

Flickering against the pain

Today, the pain is gone

Gone forever

Won't come back, ever

Fire burning in my eyes

It burned away all those lies

Made the flame finally die out

It’s not burning

It's not flickering

It's not lighting

The way to the path

Of the lies in the road

The only lie was for me

Burning up the fire for all to see


Watching You Die

Watching you die

Your blood is on me

I'm so happy, I'm watching you die

I am finally free - you can't hold me back anymore

I will do what I want now

I will not be held back any longer

I'm free - I'm free of this awful curse

Free to live my life as it gets worse

Slowly slipping out of my hand

But I am happy, I'm watching you die

I hold the dagger in my hand

Slowly wondering, "Is this the end?"

Maybe, but my life is just beginning

I have to die to keep going

To be reborn somewhere new

To have new hope

Dream in my mind

Smile when I walk

Find someone I love

Watching you die - you killed my soul first

You killed me - you killed me

Turning around, I walk away

Shut the door and ran away

Grabbing my stuff, I opened the door

The dagger still on the floor

Next to the victim of my stress

As I walked out in my red dress

Blood covering my bare feet

A shadow following me down the street

I smile and wonder how far I'll go

Wondering if anyone would know

I'm happy now

Laughing now

Free now

But I'm lost now

My soul in breaking

And I'm being reborn

Always to be reborn

To find something new and good

To give me hope and dreams

I followed the streams

Listening to the soft sounds

As I walk my way around the grounds

A whispering voice calls to me

Asking me why I did it

I smiled and just kept going

"I did it for my freedom" I replied

Wondering where my body truly died

Waking up in this new place

And to a smiling face

He holds me close

Kissing me cheek and whipping the tears from my face

I smile and I hug him back

But what is real and what is fake?

Am I really dreaming or did this really happen.

Why would I be happy if I am free?

Is it because I murdered the one I loved?

Come on, you know me

Tell me was it my dream

I watched you die before me

Did I kill you?

Am I happy you’re gone?

You held me back for to long

I had to do it

I couldn't take it anymore.


Killing Myself Inside
Here I am standing here
You see the tears falling down my eyes
I can't take anymore, you see
The voices there following me
Killing me inside
Ripping me apart in the worst of ways
This is my life - can't you see
It's tearing me apart from what I had
To this life I leave no alone
Nothing but the music I hear
Comforting me till I break down again
I'm standing here waiting, watching, and hoping
Something in my life will change again
It used to be fun but, now it's hell
Go ahead, I know you don't care
You're just watching me stand here
With tears running down my face
No one would even know if I left this place
Out alone, forever, you know
Telling me I might not survive
But look at where I am now - I'm still here
All those years I was pulled down
I'm on my knees now, wishing I could get up
I can't take it anymore
Whats a life of nothing when your family has something
Whats a life of nothing when their happy and you're not
Whats a life away from friends that love you for your family to have love
Whats that a life - a life yeah right
Look at me, I'm stading here
You never come over and comfort me
You'd rather be happy instead of sad
So, go ahead have fun - like I care
I got what I want and I need nothing else
It's all I ever had
Why not end it now
No, you want that.

I'm standing here
Tears running down my face
It's like a race
To see who will win
You see I'm tearing you away from that man
You're mine, you hear me, I won't let you get hurt again
Come on home
I miss you and I'm alone
Bored to death like I always am - empty inside like I always am

Tears Falling
Tears following down my face

I'm running out of time in this race

Running so fast I can't see the light

Fighting hard with all my might

Killing the sorrow

For tomorrow

When it comes, will I still be alive?

My life is driveing me crazy

I try so hard to find help

None will listen

Tears keep falling

No one is calling

Please help me



I don't know what to do anymore

There is so much I can't take anymore

No one in the world is here

I'm alone and at the end of my road

No one is here to help me

I got comfort but that's all I've got

I can point to a spot

But, you won't notice me

Standing here crying all day

Tears are flowing down my face

I'm losing this race

Dieing from the sickness inside

Trying to fight to get outside

Trapped in the shadows of today

Becuase tomorrow it's to late

I'll be dead before I'm ever foced again

To love someone I truely hate

I'm free in my mind

Yet I still have the chains around me

Go ahead tell me to stop crying

If you knew, you'd be crying to

Go ahead and tell me that

I don't give a damn anymore

I tryed and tryed and no one cares

At the end of the road

I'm crying

Tears are rolling down my face

The blood is rolling down my sides

This shadow is killing me - can't you see

Why on earth won't you believe me?

God, I'm lost and crying here

With nothing to help me along the way

I'm sick of this world - I don't want to stay

Get out of my way

Damn you all

For not believe me

I just cry here

Die here

Goodbye

It's your fault

I blame you

You never listened to me so why should you care

I'm jsut a lier in your fucking eyes

Go ahead tell me you love me

I wont believe it anymore

You jsut lieing to me saying you care

Well you know what - you can go to hell

I'm dieing and no one cares

So I laugh

I'm dieing

Tears in my eyes

Running down my face

Go ahead say you fucking love me

I don't give a damn anymore

Go on, I dare you

I would die faster

In this crule wotld which we call home

Not much of a home when where all killing each other

Go ahead kill me befor I kill myself

In my own misery

My depression is killing me

I could of been put on pills

Brain washed with the sickness of happiness

Wow what a day that would be

Me happy when I'm dieing

Go ahead tell me i'm crazy

I won't care

Go ahead and stare

I'm crying

I'm dying

I'm fading

I'm falling

I'm crawling

I'm bleeding

On this ground which is so holy

I hate it with my might

This world just isn't right

This is the end

Goodbye - I'm crying


Water Flowing

Listen to the water flowing

Over the scattered rocks

Down the rushing stream

Across the country

Flowing forever

Free and heavy

Flowing to the west

Flowing to the right

Flowing to the south

Flowing to the north

Water is everywhere

Water is rain

Water in a pool

Water in a mud puddle

Water in the earth

Flowing down the river beds

Flowing down the side of the hills

Listen to the water running

Can't you hear that sound

It's ranning

And pouring

The water is falling

From the sky

To the ground

Water flowing

[Midnight]

Saved (poem based off deimos)

I'm hiding in the darkness again

The shadows hover over me

Things move in the darkness - you see

Getting closer so they can grab you

Those red eyes in the middle on the room - staring you down

A smile on his face as he kneels beside you

Reaching out with his sharp claws - he finds you.

Pulling you closer - gripping your hair.

Screaming out for help - he hits you

Turning around to get away

He smiles down at you as he holds you there on the ground

Opening his big mouth and snapping down

On your lovely neck that was wide open

He drinks from you as you scream

And slowly you di,e you kick and scream but no one comes to find you

He drags you off for later

You're just his slave for labor

Chained to the wall above

Blood dripping onto the ground

With one word you could be dead

But a glowling blue eyes find you and come up beside you

He touched your neck and heals it

Smiling softly at you he pulls you in away from the creature within.

You smile softly as you sleep

Laying in your bed - it's neat

Covered up, tucked in tightly

It was only an other dream

The blue eyed demon saved me again

Who is this man with the glowing eyes

The ice cold hands

The long blode hair and soft skin

His smiling face and nice body

A demon saved me from an other demon?

You might not know

Even a demon can love.

Lightning Storm

Listen to the wind blow

Listen to the leaves move

Listen to the rain drops

Listen to the thunder

Listen to the sound of cracking lighting

The sight of a storm is wonderful

In the most wonderful way

Look out and watch the lighting

Listen to the howling of the wind

Listen to the thunder

There's a storm coming

Would you sit and watch it

Would you sit and listen to it

Would you want to see it

Rolling in over the mountains

Rolling down the dusty hills

Rolling over the tops of the trees

Rolling over the cliffs that we see

It's coming now, lighting up the dark sky

Bright lines writing in the air

I smile as I watch them work

Lines in the air

Thunder booms

Lighting flashes

Rain drops

Wind blows

People watching

People wondering

People listening

Because thats the storm

Stalkers

Walking down the hall

Running my hand against the wall

You're slowly following me

Can't you see

But I can hear you

As if your right under my shoe

I turn and smile

And you don't move for awhile

Your caught in my trap

With a smile under your cap

I walk forward

For a word

I don't say nothing

I reach down and grab the thing

Hanging on your pants making the noise

Sounds like toys

Around your waist

I stare back up at you and give you a huge smile

I slowly turn and walk away till next time I hear you behide me with those chain pants

Your Always There

You're always there. Leaning against me, smiling at me with that "I want you to smile" I smile when you do. I hug you knowing you want to hug me too. I nudge you when your alseep and you help me the same way. You're my eyes when I can't see. You're my smile when I am sad. You're my friend when I have died. You're hugging me tightly squishing me till I can breathe no more. Then I turn and grab you for me. Man, what a friend I have that I can steal all the hugs I want from. Whats this? Oh, this is fun. His laughing because I got his side again, that one spot where all seems hopless and I give it a little squish and you moan and fall down. Man, what a spot. I kneel down beside you and smirk, holding you there. "Hello friend, what a day, what a day. I got you pinned again"


Stranger

He stands in the middle on the street, staring at you with those cold, evil, blood red eyes. That glow in the night, he stares in the very deepths of you soul. He steps towards you his hand extended out as sharp claws reach out towards you.

You back up slowly, scared and alone. There is no one there to help you. You feel your back hit the brick wall behind you and you begin to shake as he comes closer. There's an evil smile on his face. He opens his mouth to speak and reveals sharp, dagger like teeth. His voice echos through the land for all to hear, "Abandon hope, all ye who enter here". With that he grabs you tightly around the neck and you begin to scream for help. He smirks, enjoying the scream as he holds you to the wall. He sinks his deadly fangs into you bare neck, slowly sucking the life from you. Your screams grow faint and you fall limp in his arms. He drops your lifeless body onto the ground, turns and walks away. A cold wind picks up whispering over your corpse. Not remembering this was only a dream, you never wake up.

Ghosts Watching Over Me

I sit here, alone, like I normally do all the time. Nothing but the dogs and ghosts are near, watching over me. I am alone, not a noise to be herd as I sit in this chair. Now and then the radio and the music it plays. A wandering spirit, a lost soul, a good soul, a kind soul, all alone like always. It seems sometimes I sit in my room and just cry for no reason. I never know why. I have a lot of problems, but I am just a lost soul trying to find its way. It seems the ghosts watch me as I lay in my bed a blanket wrapped around me, a stuffed animal under one arm and a warm dog beside me. Why have the good times gone? The free life I used to live. There wasn't a care in the world about what would happen to me or what I would do. I used to think of a future as a sweet place to be, but now it's just wasting away. A lost soul dies when left alone.

Days Pass By


Days pass by
But you never know why
You never stopped to look at what you got
You wanted it to slow down and now you have nothing.
You had it all, but it was going to fast for you
You threw it all away.

Why slow down, you're finally getting what you want - all at once
Bad things happen all the time
Good things take time - once in a life time
So don't slow down once you have it.

Under The Steps

Under the steps is my hide away. The darkness of my light, the fire in my eyes. I love the darkness, I live for darkness, the cold darkness under the steps with all my friends. We're like a pack of wolves in a cold, damp, wet cave laying together, staying together, forever.

Under the steps
No one can mess with us
No on can touch us
We're hidden from the world
Like rats or vampires, some say
Afriad of the light, oh what a lie
The darkness is us our fellings, our life
Under the steps we thrive
We live
We sleep
We eat
We talk
We laugh
We hide
We fight
We joke
We cry
We kill
Under the steps is where we thrive
Away from the jail, the evil, the satan that is school
Away from the sexists, the haters, the racists, those people

If you hate us so much... why do you want us to come out? Why do you come searching?

All I Ever Wanted Was To Love

The only thing I ever wanted was to love,
Someone as deeply as I wanted love
I was to scared of being hurt to go through,
That pain of a broken heart when your love betrays you
Why should I be afraid of it if I want it that bad
Should I take it and go with the risks of love?
The broken heart, the tears, the pain, the sorrow, the pleasure.
That I will give up, give in for the love I want
Trapped with anger, hate and rage until I find
That someone I am an willing to share my life with


Alone In The Dark

Alone in the dark
Away from the park
To somewhere I know
To somewhere I want
To sit here in the darkness
Waiting, watching for the one to come
Where is it? Can I see it?
Its here always, here somewhere in the dark, waiting for me
It's wacthing me
Where is it?
Its in me.
How you may ask
I never knew but I will tell you
It's still there... waiting to come out.

Rainy Day
What can I say
On this raining day
Looking up at the sky I wonder
If when I find it
Will I want it
Can I stay with it
How long will I have it
Will it hurt me
Will it love me
The rain falls down
The lightning strikes
The thunder rolls
And the earth will shake
I smile as the rain falls
Listening to its lovingly song
It puts me to sleep, my soul to rest
For the next day might not be the best
Here now I drift asleep
Till to next day, I will wake
Start the day over with a brand new slate
Yet I wonder where to start
Thinking, my mind closed off to others

Darkness Will Rise

Out of the shadows, a darkness will rise
To rid the earth of it's lies
Never to be heard again this word, be it "love"
The word is a lie if not ment with the heart
The drama is up and the goodness is down
The evil demon has struck again
To laugh and play with us until he wins.

We Will Remember You( To Megan Posten a dear friend of mine that was shoot and killed the day after prom)

As time passes it becomes more painful
Becasue I know I never want to forget you
But your smiling face is not here anymore
We all miss you and hope you're in a better place
Those monsters that killed you will pay
Even if I have to hunt them down, they're dead
For my rage will never end
People are crule and evil
But why do we have to be this way
For money? Fame? Fortune?
Then I will stop my rage, but not forgive
Never forgive the four that murdered
When I find them, they'll suffer for taking you
Me and my friends, I love so much
Friends gather around your grave, mourning your lost face
Love is present, love plays a part
I'm sorry I did not come, sorrow overcame me
I think about you all the time, you and your friends
You're still the prettiest girl I ever knew
An amazing friend - let it shine down on the world for all to know
To many lives have been claimed this way
This is my farewell Megan Posten and friends
Our hearts still reach out to you.

This is for all of my friends who were ever murdered or killed. This is for you.

Depressing
A fire deep in me burns with hate and rage
With all that has happened, why must it get worse
At the end of my road, I'm lost, stuck, I can't go on
I hate this feeling with in me
To be happy is almost impossible for me
School, friends, love and life - everything seems to move away in the end
Hate and rage builds up as people force you to do stuff
Freedom is not real unless you are a child
Right now I'm in chains
Chains that hold me to my horrible life - nothing can help
Nothing can make it better
I feel like I can't speak out
Trapped with thoughts so I won't hurt peoples feelings
Nothing is free anymore
Our rights are being taken from us
A slave in school and at home as well
If i had a life what would it be like
My site and my friends on the net are my family, my home
My home where I can come to let it all out because...
No one online can hear you scream


(ah ha yeah... Star edited and needs a big bowl of ice cream and a thousand oreos and a hug for this. e.e Editing this really kills my wrist. =[ like... badly. -sniffle-)

[Midnight]

A Tree(short story)

Midnight was outside walking around, or close to, the wood. She had not a thought on her mind, and was enjoying her night away from everything. She just enjoyed the city with all it's glory. She smiled to herself thinking of a plan that could make her city ten times popular than it was now, since many people came from all around to see her city. Some came simply to see her, the legendary Midnight, the first of the Seven. She smiled at a thought that come to her mind, and without warning two guys grabbed her and moved her to the woods. Slapping a hand over her mouth, they smirked as they looked at her. A third guy come towards them with rope. They grabbed her arms and tied them around the tree behind her, then held her there and moved her to a kneeling position. They smirked down at her as they tilted her head back and forced her mouth open. She jerked around, grawling at them as they poured a potion down her throat. They ripped her shirt off, and she jerked hard and growled, but they grabbed one of her legs and tied that down as well to keep her from moving much.

One guy unzipped his pants and gripped her hair tightly, jerking her head back so she was meeting his dick. He smirked and jerked her head against it as the other guy let go of her mouth. She attempted to scream, but the dick slipped down her thoat. She tried to pull away, but he pressed her mouth against it and groaned slightly. "Bite me and die." He snapped as the other guy took out two needles and sucked her breasts with them. God, it burned like hell. Midnight jerked around a bit more, but choked slightly and just began to suck.

The third guy took the rope and tied it around her, making her breasts stand up and seem bigger. The other guy smirked and looked down at her and took some pictures as she pressed on unwillingly.


Smiling Faces (deticated to brian and chirs ..lol)

Smiling faces

Fast races

Soft sounds

Light colors

Danceing music

People laughing

Moveing slowly

To the sound of music

Heavy drinking

Big cakes

Party jokes

It's a wedding

A wonderful wedding

Two males walking down the isle

There love is as long as a mile

Love is love

Humans are humans

Rights are rights

Weddings are weddings

The wedding bands

On their fingers

True love

Beautiful love

They end it with a kiss

Something I won't miss

Hands holding each other lightly

To the males love

There beautiful together - like a dove

Let them live in peace forever

Forever in there love

Together in there love

They rode home in a car

And saw a shooting star.



A Life Worth Nothing(Short Story Part1)



It was a very rainy day outside and Midnight had gotten up around five AM to get ready for school. She got up and got dressed, put her stuff in her book bag, brushed her teeth and combed her hair. After that she just walked slowly to the computer and got on it to do the stuff she did everyday. She was depressed and upset just about everything this year has been the worst year ever for her. She wiped the tears from her eyes she woke up with. Even her dreams where sad and depressing, and her friends were worried about her. She didn't care she just wanted to be left alone. Tons of shit was getting her upset and when her friends asked her why and she didn't reply, they would just get mad at her. They would try and force it out of her which pissed her off more then anything in the world. Her dog, Ninja, a black lab, came over to her and put his maw on her lap. She reached her left hand down and pet his soft muzzle. He looked up at her with sad eyes trying to cheer her up, but it didn't work. She just started to cry and reached over and hugged him tightly around the neck "It's ok boy, I'll be fine, okay? Don't worry about me." She said with tears running down her face. He licked her maw and wagged his tail a bit.


Midnight let him go and rose back up and started checking her stuff like she always did. Ninja got under her chair and laid here putting his maw against her foot and licking at it once to cheer her up.

She sighed and rubbed the tears from her face "I don't want to go to school anymore." She said, looking up something for a class and just broke down crying again as she looked it up. She just couldn't stop crying. After awhile she looked at the clock and she was running late. She took the dogs out and told everyone 'good bye', kissed her mom, and left for the bus. Once she got to the bus, she pulled out some candy from her pocket and began to eat it to keep herself from crying, but she looked down with tears in her eyes, trying her hardest not to cry. She hated to cry infront of people she didn't know or like. After a while of standing there, the bus came and she got on it. She sat alone until the bus stopped and she got off of it. She stood there infront of the school not wanting to go inside. She would just get more upset. She sighed and rubbed her face and walked towards the building headed for the cafeteria. She walked in and didn't stand in line, instead she walked over to a few friends and slammed her book bag on the table. She laid her head down on it. Her two friends looked at her worried and asked her what was wrong, but she didn't reply she just sat there.

"Come on, Midnight whats wrong?" A friend of her's asked her.

"Nothing, I'm fine, I'm just tired." She said, lying, not looking up at him.

"You're not fine, come on, I know you're--" He started, but she cut him off.

"I SAID I WAS fucking FINE!" She said, pushing his tray off the table. She then laid her head back down.

He looked at her and grabbed her arm and pulled it slightly. "Calm down and tell me, please?" He asked her.

Midnight jerked her arm and was about to start crying again, but looked away, not saying anything.

"Come on, Midnight, please, you haven't talked to anyone for a while. Come on, MD, please, tell me whats wrong?" He asked her.

"Life, okay? Just leave me be." Midnight snapped at him. Then she picked up her stuff to go to the bridge with her other friends.

"Midnight, no, you'll tell us. No more being quiet." He said hotly, grabbing her arm again.

Midnight turned and punched him in the face. "I SAID NO." She yelled.

The others where shocked she hit him and backed away from her.

Midnight eyed them and turned and walked away. Great, now the principals were coming. She wasn't in the mood. She turned and walked the other way towards the doors of the outside.

The head principal grabbed her arm. She turned and bit his arm hard. He yelled out in pain, and she ran out the door towards the woods. She dropped all of her things except her coat and kepted running, tears in her eyes.

The principal followed her.

One of Midnight's friends looked down at CJ "...Guess she didn't want to talk." BC said and sighed. "She finally lost it. She couldn't take it anymore." She said sadly.



Why(Short Story Based On The Rock Behide The Cafe At Highington High)


It was three months ago when it was freezing cold out. No one was outside except two guys. She stayed where she was for a while since she was cold. She went over the hill to goth rock and sat down at the rock, which all of her goth friends had signed their names on the rock. It was a bit trashy since the preps would always trash their place. She smiled lightly and ran her hands across the names. She looked over past the hill and looked at the woods below. She herd a noise behind her, but ingored it, judt thinking it was a bird or something behind her. Suddenly strong hands grabbed her hard and put a hand over her mouth. The next thing she knew she was laying down on the rock, looking at the two men who were outside, whom she did not know. The other guy held her legs down and begain to take her paints off. She jerked in their hold, trying her best to get away. They started to beat her when she started to try to get away from them, and being as strong as she was, it wasn't easy keeping her held down they half way knocked her out. She blacked out as they both held her down and raped her. Hours later she came to, not knowing where she was only the pain of the rape.


Big Oak Tree

Midnight had been around the city when two guys had attacked her from out of no where and dragged her towards the river to a tree with a lose around it and a rope hanging from it. A small group of rebels around the tree were yelling and cheering for the two guys that had caught Midnight.

Midnight snarled and stuggled against them as they lifted her onto a horse with force. She kepted stuggling to get away. It was happening too fast. They put the lose around her neck, and the yelling and cheering got louder as they all amied guns at her incase something went wrong. She started to breathe hard and then the felt the horse leave her and her neck crack hard against the rope. She began to choke as the rope tightened around her neck. The cheering got louder and louder. Gun shots echoed through the city as she slowly died hanging from a tree...

Midnight woke up in the middle of the city with people around her. She had been walking around when she had the vision and blacked out from it. She was breathing hard as people called for help or a doctor for the queen as she layed there coughing.


The Red Eyed Man

There is the eye, looking at me
Spinning around, glaring at me
That evil red eye, watching me
That evil red eye, holding me
That eye that's so evil, you see
So why would it watch over me

There's that eye
It will never die
It looks at me with evil and hate
I think this time it's to late
For me to move and run away
For me to look no more


Free At Last

Free at last - free at last
Huntington High can kiss my ass
I'm so sick of this fucking school
Everyone acts like it's so damn cool
Walking around like possers
They all look like losers
I hope that school burns to the ground
So sick of those stupid people discriminating us
I'm free - I'm free
From that terrible school
I'm leaving it for good
This was my last year
Ha, ha, bye, bye you losers
Hope you had find tormenting us
I'll get you in an dark ally one day
You wait and see
Free at last - free at last
Huntington High can kiss my ass
Walking away from that damn school
I laugh and catch it on fire
Waving a hand, I say good bye and get on with my life

[Midnight]

Looking In The Mirror

Looking in the mirror

I can see your face

Wishing you was here to hold me

Telling me everything would be ok

You stroke my face

Dry the tears from my eyes

Tell me I should go lay down

Because you'll be there when I wake

And wrap your warm arms around me

Hold me close

Tuck me in

Play with my hair

And take the thoughts away

But remember this

Between the kiss

I will love you always

Now Say with bliss

Between the kiss

Say you love me forever

Now say with love

The Stars above

You'll stay with me forever

If look back

I feel the pain

Hearing you call my name

Now you've gone

Far away

You're beside me in my dreams

But only in my dreams

Stroking my head when i though about dying

And tried to stop me from crying

Looking in the mirror

I can still see you

Why do you curse me

With your damn smile

I know your go and wont stay awhile

Stress

I can't take this stress

My god can't you guess

I'm wearing a stupid dress

And I look like a mess

My god the fucking stress

Why can't you guess

I'm in a mess

I'm just something less

Can you not guess

That this stress

I just can't test

This is my best

You can forget the rest

And forget this stress

Can you guess

I'm trying my best

You don't like it can you just guess



Crying

Laying in the bed I'm crying

Sometimes I wish I was dying

And wish I was flying

To somewhere better then this world

Crying hard, I grip the pillow

Screaming, why can't anyone help me

Wondering why everyone left me

I'm so alone, I feel like dying

Or wish I was flying

To somewhere else

A wonderful place

Where no more tears could be spilt

The pillow gets wetter as I lay there crying

I'm all alone, I feel like dying

Come take me away, I feel like flying

I really want to stop my crying

I hate when I feel like dying

Come take my away

Far away from here

Please come take me away my dear

I don't want this fear

No more my dear, no more

Shinny

Hello there my little devil. How are you today my dear? Your evil eyes shine brightly. Your hissing loud. Curling over my arm and gripping it slightly. Slithering over my arm.my shinny little demon, Satan, you Devil. I love you so much. Your cold black scales running over my skin, your toung flicking against my arm. Your eyes they are so shinny,petting you-you feel so cold. Wanting you to take in the evil and keep it with you, my sweet snake, my evil Pine Snake. Your black scales shine brightly in the light of the room,oh my god, your so cool. This is the only part I like about this school, my shiny black Pine Snake.

[Midnight]

The Dagger Part III

Running the dagger across your skin

I'm about to do it again

Smiling lightly

Tying you up tightly

Stripping you slowly

I want you baby

Moan for me today

Mmm Baby

Letting the blood roll down your chest

While my tongue licks the blood off you slowly

Mmm baby

You make me so happy

Biting your neck

Sitting on your lap

Drawing blood

Licking your neck

Playing with your body

With my lovely dagger

Mmm baby

I love you so much

Scream for me

Running the dagger down your thighs

Letting the blood roll down them as I lick the blood off slowly

Mmm baby

I love you so much


And so does my dagger

Pleasuring you in the most wicked way

Mmm baby I hope you enjoy it





Weak & Worthless
You always call me weak
Always saying I am worthless
Slamming me down on the ground
Over and over again
Putting my hopes and dreams in a locked volt
Never to have them came true for me
But you can’t stop me can’t you see
You might think I am weak
You might say that I am worthless
But in all the hidden dreams and hopes
In my life I can still break in and rule the day
For today I take my life back
Your words mean nothing to me now
Just someone whispering to me
From all the way across the sea
Drifting away in the distance
Sinking beneath the soar
Nothing gonna stop me
Nothing can't you see
I run my life with hopes and dreams
And no one is going to tell me
That I am weak and worthless
For I broke away from those chains
Stood there for awhile and now I am free
Free to stab you away from my life
Free to dream
To hope to do the wonders I can do
For you
Are not in my way
For I am free today

Sadness

Why is it not normal to be sad

When so much stuff happens around me is bad

I’m so sick of this pain I fell everyday of my life

It really sucks you know

Sitting here alone 24/7

Crying sometimes

Sad a lot

Why does this city have to be so bad

It never used to be this bad now I can't even go outside without a dagger in my hand

God I’m so sick of druggies why can't all the bad ones just die

Why can't I feel happiness anymore

What did I ever do to deserve this

Tell me why

Why do I deserve this pain

Crying almost everyday

Damn it, I want to be happy

But when I do, you push me down again

Holding me down so I can't get up

Please just let me be

Let me be happy can't you see

Your killing me deep down inside

Watching me lay here day after day wishing someone would save me

But it's only myself here alone all the time

Everyone’s fading away from my life

Sometimes I would like to end it with a knife

Sadness is normal when you have nothing

Bad things happen to the unhappy

Come on life give me a break

I do everything for myself all the time

Is it about time I get a break with all the hard things in life

Please let me be happy

I'm so sick of crying, you've curse me forever

Why I did nothing to you

I served you like a slave, now you leave me

All alone can't ya see

I’m suffering here, I’m down on my knees

Crying with my pleas

Let me be happy that’s all I ask


The Noise

This is what I am famous for

A loud scream that leave you on the floor

Down on your knees

While your ears bleed

The ringing still echoing in your ear

What's the matter can't you hear?

Blood rolling down your ears slightly

While I help you up lightly

This is what I’m famous for

I’ll leave you on the floor

Listen to me or you will pay

Can't hear anything till the next day


Eyes Of A Dying Demon

His eyes where dark, lost with hope; sick and blank like all at the same time. He had been staring up at the wall for about a day now, trying to remember all his inventions, his formulas. He wondered if he was going to make it and why he was cursed with this sickness. Tears slowly rolled down his face at the thought of losing all he worked so hard to get; the friend, the fame, and his lovely lover who loved him very much. He rolled onto his side trying to summon enough strength to get up and walk around, to hold on to what life he could grab. He didn’t want his lover to see him like this; he didn’t know what was wrong with him. “I need to make a formula,” he groaned, slipping out of the bed weakly and headed slowly down towards his lab. Shaking and stumbling as he went. He was going to find a cure if it killed him. (Still thinking about it)


To My Lover Anubis

I met you ,you made me smile

You tried to hide away in the darkness

I dragged you out

I made you smile

You made me smile

When we were sad; we would cheer each other up

When you were falling; I lifted you up

You helped me as well

I love you

You love me

Your the best thing that could happen to me

And me to you

Anubis I love you

More then anything in the world

You make me happy more then anyone else i ever dated

You make me smile

As I make you

Your voice is sexy and hot

I love it when you sing to me

As me to you makes you smile

I can't wait till I can wrap my arms around you and kiss you deeply

I can't wait till I can run my fingers through your long blonde hair

And stare into your cool grey eyes

I love you Anubis and I will forever be yours

As I am to you

I’ll be the shadows in your room at night

The clouds that you look up to the sky to see

The moon and stars in the sky

I’ll be with you very everywhere you go.

Love you dearly

Your lover midnight

[Midnight]

In A Bed Of Pedels

laying in a bed covered in soft red pedels

while they slightly stick to my skin

pulling you closer

kissing you deeply

running my hands against your chest

smiling up at you

while sweat pours down our bodies

this is the happenest moment in my life

me and you moveing as one

connecting like we never have befor

shareing each others kisses

we get lost in the bed of pedels

the ones you layed over the bed

while you lited candles around the room

the caddles flicker in the darkness dancing together with us both

god i love you

love you so much you drive me crazy

wrapping my arms around you

running my fingers through your hair

mmm baby lets never let this night end

lets do this forever till we run out of breath

you and me togheter makes me smile

forever in a bed of pedels

love was once lost and locked inside me

and you helped me love again

i'll love you forever

love you forever

in a bed of pedels

mmm baby lets keep going

till the cadles burn out

then where be done for that night

lvoe you so much

never stop

never get tired

for tonight is special

in a bed of pedels


Romantic Dinner(By: Midnight & Anubis)

romantic dinner late at night

when the full moon is bright

it'll be our light

for you are my dark knight

your smile takes my breath away

for there is no other day

then this one tonight

where we say how much we love each other

smile and laugh and have peace together

you are my lover my one true lover

and on this romantic night

when the full moon is bright

i'll take you into my arms

and hold you tight

In A Bed Of Blood
it's dark,still and quiet

a body lies still in a bed

blood dripping onto the floor

a sent of death is in the air

a voice of a forgotten soul

for someone done a nauthy toal

while blood drips on the floor

all you can see is red

a male body filled with lead

as he layed asleep now he is dead

arms crossed over his chest

something off about the rest

for who would kill a man so strong

oh god what did this man do wrong

to have someone muder him

The Dagger Part IV
your metal blade feels good against my skin. I missed you my sweet little dear.I finally came back to you.I'm going insae again.Ican hear you begging me to use you.Oh, my dear i will i will.For I have a misson for you.To end my pain,my sorrow my old little friend.Your cold fleash I can feel running up against my skin.I am about to use you again.Your insane little laugh was herd again by my mighty ears.My hair falls down into my face.My insae look lost in this race.Taste my blood and fleash against you.Tell me does it taste good to you my sweet little dagger dear?

The Dagger Part V
grabbing your hard handle I had enough it's time i ended this mess.The noise is driving me cazy i want it all to end.leaving the cold quiet room. walking down the soft blue steps angerly slamming the open heavy wooden door.heading with with you my old little friend to murber someone this is the end. i walk up to that stupid blue door. stabbing your cold metal blade into the stupid little door.hearing the people scream inside as i break the windwos. i open the door with you at my side.it's time for these noisy stupid people to die.running towards them with a crazed look in my eye.you smirk and smile and thank your master for your dinner as i stab your icy blade into there fleash letting blood spill onto the walls. there bodies lay on the floor.i smirk as i walk out of the door as blood drips down your blade full of delight.

Soft Pedals
soft pedals against my skin
i love the feeling of roses again
for this love has no sin
this love is just the begin
of something speical inside i hold with a grin
for this pedals are so soft you see
it's as if my lover is pressed up against me
these lovely pedals of the roses are so soft against my face
they smell so nice and freash
as i lay my head against my lovers chest
pedals so soft
there not like the rest
no these are speical
just like my lover is
for no one else dared to be so gental with me
so soft as pedals that i can see
soft pedals against my skin
i love the feeling of roses again
for this rose is the first of many
from this there are no thorns
just us without any morns
for we'll be together
forever
with the roses

I'm A Vampire
i'm A Vampire
in my empire
surranded by fire
your my only desire
here with me
for all to see
forever
together
in my empire
i'm a vampire
surranded by fire
with my only desire
your my lover
the one i discovered
i pulled the mask from your face
stroking your hair while you played with my lace
for who would of thought
that if you work to help someone
then everyone
will come back to you
you the vampire
who with my desire
helps people discover
there true selves
not hidding behide a mask
for you only have to ask
i wrapped my claws around you
pulled you in and didn;t let go
your my desire
my lover
my dream of freedom and happiness
for all the saddness
will disapear tomarrow
for we could have no more sorrow
i'm a vampire
in my empire
surranded by fire
your my only desire
holding you close
never letting go
even if this seems slow
it'll be worth it in the end
my lover
to savor
forever

In A Bed Of Ashes
in a bed of ashes
who layed here befor
the fire came that awful night
to distory the day
hide the evidence
run away
who who would of done this
a child was in this bed
now her ashes lay here
looks like her parents where drunk again
or just beated her again and ran away
left here here to burn that day
why would you do this to a child
one who could not protect it's self
was left alone forgotten from the world
left away to be discover as ashes
in a bed of ashes
tear fell here
around this bed
where intact lays the child's blood
from other ngiths of beatens from her"lovering parents"
they left her here
to die
to suffer
for she was in the way
for she always cried
cried for food and warmth
cried for comfert
but only got pain
they couldn;t take it anymore so they killed her
left her here
in a bed of ashes
this is a sad story
why does no one worry
for if you let stupid things run your life
your do things like this
this in our horror to pleasure our minds
make us mad and crazy
only to forget
forget what we once was
in a bed of ashes lays the proof
the proof of humans pleasure
of the stupid drink that makes people angery and drunk
who would beat a child an animal anything
or make them so crazy there kill themselves
or is it because where lazy and have nothing else to do
in a bed of ashes
a girl died that stormy night
alone in her bed she cried
her arms and feet tied
here is where she died
tear fell from her face
she had no place in this race
it seemed tahts he died
without knwing love
love that is the only pleasure that is good
for if you love
you can pass it down
make people happy
make people smile
make people laugh
but here the little girl died
starig at her teddy bear
her only friend in the whole world
the only friend that could not help her
if you look closer
if you seen that bear
his eyes shead tears
and after
she was killed he took her hand
and carried her off to heaven
where they both play free
and happy
remember
acohol kills

Ridding Freely
Ridding Freely
over the land
wild and free it feels so grand
through the woods
over the mountions
on the back of a gentil beast
for some see horror in there eyes
i see a gentail creature taking me to freedom
hearing the hooves beat against the earth
making me feel so wild and free
we both move as one
as we explore the land
nothing is more grand
then ridding freely
over the land
feeling as if nothing could harm you
as if your the only soul up there on the mountions
your heart beats like it used to when you where a child
when you felt so free and wild
now i found where my spirt sores
where it's freedom still shores
over the mountions and in the woods
ridding freely
over the land
this is so grand
for being up here makes me so free
for only a true heart could see
what nature really is for me
ridding freely

The Purple Dagger(The Dagger Paet VI)
laying on an old red oak table. i shine brightly for you. my blade loves the pleasure of your enemies blood. as i work for you. master who made me by her hand and her magic from the pure purple amithist stone. caved so sharply that my blade is like steel. here forever to please you.here i lay on top of this table shocked in your enemies blood. forever is the key i play for you. for i am your best possession in your life. my deep rich color gives you pleasure. my lightness gives your hand a quick swift grace. to kill those enemies you sworn to kill. for it is your job to protect your thrown. oh,master my thanks is to you. for you gave me so much pleasure. my blade makes you smile as i burn with your best magic. sworn to help you to protect this house. from any enemy you see in your eyes. for my blade will keep what lies. a memory of hope to succed.in everything you do. master i wait for you.


In A Bed Of Gold(still in progress)
in a bed of gold
can never be sold
for the treasure that lies in it is so pure
for no other one could lure
to wonderwers of the night
the treasure shines bright
for it can reflect all light
in a bed of gold
for one so young and beautiful
this one is so wonderful
lined over the bed
in sheets so gold
they sparkle and shine
glow and glitter

[Midnight]

Death Whispers
death whispers softly in my ear
a voice so soft none can hear
but only one soul who is so near
to help guild them through the land
a soul so wonderful and grand
in a whisper of death
she fearsit not
talks to them as if there real
so death isn't a big deal
death whispers around me
for only the souls can see
a key in a path of there life
thier desire to know
for thier minds to grow
death whsipers
so listen to it
maybe your see what they see
in the eyes of the living
that they thae so willingly
for the knowldge of thier death
whispers to me

Dark Clouds
dark clouds cover the sky
it's dark like a death and can not die
shifting over the land
moving like the soft brown sand
guilding slowly for the day
where none will came out to play
for today
the dark clouds rule
caring the news like a mule
over the land of the dead
for today is full of dread
the dark cloyds over the land
shifting like soft sand
moving as one
across the sky
for this none can get by
for the death clouds roll today
over the land
across the sky
death can not die

Walking Treasure
a creature who sparkles in the sun movers gracefully over the land. soft gold paw prints follows behide her as she steps, her coat sparklers and shines. as she movers slowly towards the castle. she is the last of her kind. the last of the walking trasure that walks the land. the fae of a wonderful coat. her fur is soft and smooth in gold. and her eyes twinkle in the light which does shine of gold form the sun. afriade since she is the last she came to the castle gates. with easy grace she walks past them as they open, to talk to the new protecer and hier to the thrown.simple golden female wolf. can be as swift and graceful as a gentil deer. here she will be the last of the walking treasure.

Pedals Of A Frozen Flower
it is cold in the land
dust of white razing far and wide
a blue sun shines down on the place
of that of a walking path
along side in this wintery land
everything is still alive
passing by the soft blue trees
swifting over the path to the flowers
fearing the cold frost killed the flowers
made of what looks like glass i gentil move my hand to the frozen pedals
i noticed that it was soft and smooth
in my hand and i smiled
for what looks like a white
death land
is a wonderland filled with live wonders
the sun moves the trees and makes life
of the soft white pedals in between my finger.
the smoothness of this frozen flower
the pedals are still soft and alive
and a sweet vinalla smell comes from it
for in this land i take a little bit
of the pedals and let them lay in my hand
still warm and freash on a summers day
they warm my hands and float away
pedals of a frozen flower

Your Pain Is My Pleasure
you stubble around whinning and acking
sore and lonely
looking at me
as if you can't see
your pain is pleasureing my soul
for you think you know what i am going though
but,hey you have no clue
i laught at you and your misery
for how you know how i feel
like all the pain is on one wheel
ha your pain pain is my pleasure
mine only to measure
against your blistering soul
this is one goal
i will win
for my love is not a sin
but,for now you will suffer
for your pain will only master
to all the happenness you take away
how this is the day
the day to have things go my way
savoring your pain with all my pleasure
it's your fault that you suffer
i am sick of tying
i feel like dying
but i'll never be free
till i get my glee

Flying Dragon
long stong wings flapping
over the tall mountion tops
up high in the sky
moving though the clouds
like a montster in the sea
none can see it's flying so high
one of the last of it's dying kind
shinn brightly red
spitting the fire like a flame
lighting the dark night cloudy sky
prooving that he is the best
that he is the last of whats rest
masting the sky,forest,sea,and earth
all round the dying earth
flying dragon
flying so high
the last of that can;t possible die
stay alive for me
keep my dreams so they can see
come on dragon
fly for me
live for me
red dragon in the sky
come take me away with you
flyin dragon
i live for you
take me away
for an other day

Dust Falling Down On Me
dust falling down on me
blinding me so i can;t see
pain builds up inside
closing my eyes wishing
hoping it would stop forever
can;t take anymore together
i fall i'm done
i can;t see anymore
it's hurting me to badly
all the dust falling down on me
blinding me so i can;t see
tears fall down my face
as i put my face in my hands
wishing it'll go away
and never come back not even on an other day
and leave me alone today
forever to leave me alone
the dust keeps falling
i'm just dying
forgot about in the dust
it's almot as if they must
must put pressure on me
to me it's just killing my soul
killing me ripping me apart
crashing me down over and over
dust becmes heavy
burdnes become harder
life becames unbarrable
forgive me
forget me
i'm done
i'm lost
i'm not here no more
good bye
dust to dye

[Midnight]

Bob Evil

bob evil
see him there
bob evil
he is here
bob evil
he will kill
bob evil
he's so till
bob evil
what will he do
bob evil
killed him to
bob evil
smiles at you
bob evil
comes tonight
bob evil
don't run from fright
bob evil
red eyes glow
bob evil
evil so low
bob evil
tell me no lies
bob evil
time for you to die

The Eyes Of A Child

in the eyes of the child

her eyes are soft and grey

her hair long and black

and her lips as soft as a rose

the color of her lips are a light pinkish tan

her hair goes past her shoulders

she looks up at her parents and smiles at them

knowing that there always love her no matter what

she is about five now

smart as can be to

she has on a purple dragon amulet

and her hands reach up for you

as she smiles you near down looking into her eyes

you pick her up and hold her close to you in your arms

for this is our first little girl

and she is our most prized possession we own

and her name sounds so innicent and kind

just as her warm hands stroke over your face

as she smiles and call you daddy

i take your hand and we go off together

not knowing what the day will bring back hopes it's happy

for when we open our door

will we be shoot

and she will be standing there

looking in the eyes of our child

what will they do as our blood pours onto the ground

she smiles up at the man not anger or sad and lays down beside there body and holds them closer to her



and starts to sing a sweet aswwet song

the murder walks away with tears in his eyes

later own he takes his life

all because of

the eyes of the child

The Beast In Me

the beast in me
is locked inside
waiting for an other day to excpae
kill and cause rage
for this life is killing me
hurting me so much that it wants out
it wants to be freeit wants to savor the fear
to taste the anger in my soul
feeding it more and more
till i can't take no more
filling the rage bubble up
gripping my fists tightly
the beast pounding in my chest
it just wont rest
it's hungry for rage
wanting me to snap
even i want to break down and loose it
the voices inside my head
keep telling me that i am already dead
yet i keep packing it in
the anger to me is a sin
a sin killing me
can't you see
i want to get away
i can't take it today
i want to stay someday
with my love this day
keep the beast away
and save me

Soft Blue Eyes
he sits there with soft blue eyes
savoring the taste of bitter lies
with soft dirty blonde hair
a muscalar body is swift
and moves with the air
he sits there to drift
drift into the lies of his dreams
until his mind screams
in his dream he is alone
till the day is done
he wont have same fun
till a genilty hand strokes his face
with so much soft grace
to ease his dreams
and bring him peace
geniitly son rest today
your be fine in the day
the day of an other life
my son with blue eyes
dream in peace
and forget the lies.

Chains of The Past
don't let the chains of your past
hold you back from the dreams of your future
always aim for what you want
never let anyone smash your dreams
you are the only one
who can controll your dreams
word hard
ingore the iggnerince
break the chains
tear them up
go for the dreams
take them in your hand
hold them close to you
and never let them go
savor and taste them
let them be real
soak in them
for they are real
impress them
they are yours
never to be taken away
for they are here to stay

In A Bed Of Memories
laying in a bed
remembering the older days
the smiling faces of my wonderful friends
how they cared so much for me
and still do till this day
wonderful friends
how we shared laughter
how we shared all our emotions
even if we didn't talk about it
how we hanged out and had fun
in the morning sun
god the memeories that rush through my head
if it wans't for you guys i'll probubly be dead
all those images flashing through my head
god how i miss all off you
how you kept me company
kept me sane
kept me away from the darkness that trales behide me
seeking to see
dear friends i love you with all my heart
you been there by my side though everything
kept my head up high
and made me smile a lot
my big group of friends
how i adore you
the memeories i see now
are slowly fadding away
how i wish to keep them locked away
forever to rmember you all
the smallest picture
can make a difference
and so can i to you
love you guys
your the best

In A Bed Of Misery
laying here with tears rolling
wishing the blood was stop flowing
i can't stand the pain anymore
i feels like soemone trying to rip my insides out
i wish this pains i would never have
it makes me passout extreamly bad
god why do i have to suffer
get up and run to the bathroom to throw up
god this pain makes me cry
in a bed of misery
wishing i would die then suffer this pain
so are lucky they don;t suffer this much
and passout from the pain and rmember only little
god just make me stop breathing
make the pain stop god please
it hurts to bad i'm suffering here
why did you curse us with this stupid thing
it only brings pain when i did nothing to you at all
i can feel it creaping up my spine
a whole world of hell on my body
tiny shoots of pain on my insides
god make it stop i jsut want it to stop
make me die it hurts to much
crunshed up holding myself tightly
stupid pain just go away
i suffered to mcuh in the past
and miss days wasteing away in this bed
missing out with my friends
you fucking pain
just end me now
i can't take it anymore
i feel the darkness comeing again
fearing not waking up this time around
passing out is my darkest fear
hold my hand and grip it tight
for this time i might
not wake up

I Want To Cry
i want to cry
and i don;t know why
sometimes i want to die
and say goodbye
for most the time this saddness coems to fast
and it will always last
befor i could even cast
cast it away
for an other day
stupid saddness
i want happiness
to smile
just for a little while
wrap my arms around it
just for a little bit
savor the sweet taste
until i feel it
running in my veins
warming me inside
smirking with a happy look in my eyes
and it will tell no lies
for it'll be the greastest thing ever
and no one can take it away never
letting it shine down on me
warming me can;t ya see
i'm happy now
so take a bow
you did good
where you stood
sweet baby of mine
let it shine

The Sounds Of The Shadows
following me around
keeping me away at night
old shadows your making me cry
how i miss you and hear you where ever i go
sweet animals of mine
i hope the gods protect you
i still see you when i'm sitting on my bed
i hear you passing me
and meowing at my bed side when i'm asleep
i swear i feel you laying against me at night
curleing up beside me when i'm crying
i see you now
and it makes me cry
i miss you so much
sweet animals of mine
i see your shadows
i hear you cries
i found your name tag
outside our lonely door
it made me cry
as i remember you
sweet animals of mine
i haven;t forgotten you
you where my friends
sweet animals of mine
the sounds of the shadows
follow me forever
sweet animals of mine
i worship that shine
and hope your be ok
wherever you are
the sound of the shadows
i see you now
sweet animals of mine
i will never forget
your names are pinned up on my wall
your colors and tags hanging up to
beside the gaurdian of cats and dogs
and under the picture of megan posten
a dream friend i lost like the others
sweet friend sof mine
i still see your shadow
your warm flresh close to mine
i see your outline

The Sound Of Silence
sitting on my bed alone in my room
no tv or radio onnot even a tiny voice inside my head
all is quiet the sound of nothing is amazing
the things you think you see just sitting there staring at the wall
gazing hard thinking a shadow moved
or something walk past your door into the living room
how scary silence could be
even wonder why you go insane unless you have a fan a heater or music on
your'll go insane seeing the things arund you
all because of the little silence around you
all alone in my room it feels like nothing in the world is there
but yet when you look around you notice little things moving or blinking at you
how amazing what things the mind can show you
if you look hard enough at something
and thing of nothing
the sound of silence
is a wonderful thing
stareing at a wall
watching the shadows move down the hall
how some seem nicer then the others
some could even be secret murders
shadows on the hall
is doesn't bother me at all
wacthing them glide across the wall

Rocking Chair
sitting in the rocking chair
with soft long brown hair
sit george my gaurdian ghost
with circle rimmed classes that are light brown
dark blue jeans on with a blue button up shirt
he sits there
in the blue rocking chair
watching over me
day after day smiling at me
teasing me slightly
to make me happy
my ghost of mine
sits there till the end of time
rocking back and forth
in that rocking chair
in my room with cold air
all around me
he sits there for only me to see
sitting there in that rocking chair
with long brown hair
he protects me thats fair
george in the rocking chair

In A Bed Of Water
drip drop of the water drop
down on my cold pale face
drip drop the water drop
falls down with such beautiful grace
drip drop the water drop
drips down on me
drip drop the water drop
drips down can't you see
drip drop the water drop
laying here in this bed
where the water falls onto the dead
drip drop the water drop
here on the dead body of my soul
it was there only goal
laying here where the water drips down on me
drips down ever so genitil
down on my face
it feels like a hand stroking my face
lightly with there figners tips
it puts me to sleep so i can finally rest
this was only a test
a test of some weird dream
that makes anyone want to scream
drip drop the water drop
falling down like rain
drip drop the water drop
in a bed of water

Dreams Whisper
dreams whisper
in my ear
telling me all this lies
with so much said goodbyes
laying in my bed with tears in my eyes
wishing this dream would stop haunting me
the blood is all i see
killing me or someone else
this is just to much for me to take
it haunts me because thats all i see
in my dreams late at night
i can be happy in the light
,but at night my minds at fright
with the nightmares of my past
comeing back together to haunt me
sometimes i swear my time is limited
wounded arm,bad vison,hurt chest,head problem,sdizzy spells,passing out problems,hard time breathing
it scares me worse then anything in the world
why do i see these things over and over again
am i dead
all i see is red
dreams whisper of death to me
so can;t you just see
i just want a little love
befor i leave this world

Come Little Children
come little children lets fly away
fly away to the land i say
a land thats so sweet like honey
and you don't even need money
a land so nice you can do anything you want
a land of peace where everyone gets along
the air is still rich and clean
and the water as clear as glass
the skys as blue as sapphire
and the wind as smooth and steady as the tide out in the sea
a perect place with no drama no raciest remarks
where peace rules
you don;t have to worry about what you look like.or how much money you need to pay a bill
this is the world we all desever
to be happy and peaceful till our dying day
come little children
lets go to the land i say
till the end of the day
forever and ever in may
a land so sweet i get butterflies in my chest
a thrill of how i used to be
so wild and free
is how i felt
not a care in the world
no drugs
no guns
no fighting
no worries
just a land to play all day
this is what i way
the land today
it terrable
so come
come fly with me
fare away from here
can you hear
hear it calling our names
lets run away
to the sweet land
and play in the rich brown sand

Voices Inside Your Head
voices inside your head
keep telling you your dead
for all the things are said
your not living anymore
dead as a door nob in the ground
i guess i won't be seeing you around
deep in the earth of that mound
are you really down there
or are you alive right here
beside me
or can't you see
with those voices in your head
telling you that your dead
dear friend wake up
we got stuff to do today
befor the month of may
get up my friend
this isn't the end
don't give up your dreams
through the seams
of the nice silky web
that we weve
made up different just like a dream chater
with beads,different color strings
the bell with drifferent sound rings
voices inside your head
tell you that your dead
but to me your alive beside me
get up and follow
for your heart isn't hollow
make your dreams real
there yours to steal
dear friend get up
and hold your cup
to your future

Tears On A Pillow
tears on a pillow
an open window
a broken past
my heart beats fast
i climb out onto the roof
tears running down my face
i hold some tight rope lace
and tie it to a sturdy spot
while i put the lose over my neck
I stand there with arms spread wide
and say my final goodbyes
looking voer the edge
i take a step slowly then jump
falling fast the rope caught against my neck
no more will tears fall from my face
i couldn't stand the pain no more
i hang there
i am dead there
but still i have no peace
broken forever
no real love never
you broken my heart
till it turned tart
bitter and cold
but how much i longed for it
craved it
and you tore it away from me
so what do you see
an empty shell
longing for heaven
longing for hell
longing for something to hold me
something to hug me
something to kiss me
someone to love me
where can i find it
the peace that i seek
will you tell me
can you show me
i wish i could have known
the warm embrace of my own
true love

Baby Aiden
sweet littly baby
in my arms
smiling up at me
hello my little nephew
yor so tiny and smally
with soft brownish blonde hair and eye brows
with hands so small and tiny
i love you little one
when i hold you in my arm and fall asleep with you
aiden your a cute little guy
i hope your live for a long time
smiling so sweet up at me
your only aunt in the world
and your my favourite nephew in the world
so small tiny and helpless
holding you in my arms
gives me a old feeling
i used to have when i was young
one i miss when i used to hold my little step brother in my arms
and fall asleep with him at night
sweet baby aiden your so quiet for me
love you so much
when you smile up at me
you make my heart ache
as butterflies fly around in my stomach
god i love you
sweet little baby
don't cry
i got you now
sleep softly
in my arms
goodnight
baby aiden

Sometimes I Look Up At The Sky
sometimes i tilt my head back and looked up at the sky
and all i can do is just cry
wishing somehow i could just die
because all i want to do is say goodbye
because i can't take it anymore
waking up everyday knowing it was my fault
my fault for everything
i let the voices get to me
sometimes i wish they would jsut shut the hell up
and let me be
it's all my fault
and i just want to die
i never can have what i long for
never to be happy ever
why can't it last for a little while
unstead of crashing down worse then befor
one little sread of happiness is all i get
befor thor slams down his hammer
and distruction rains over me
fuck this life
it's nothing to me
there no green grass or freash air here
sometimes i just want to die
because all i can do is cry
and look up at the sky
where ever i lie
please just let me
have my happiness
let something go right
just once please
i am sick of this
being scared all the time
stuck with no where to go
doing things i am forced to do
while people wishper stupid shit in my ear
that just makes me feel bad
no matter what i try
why can't they just help me out a bit
and stop making me cry
all i ask for
is for a bit of happiness
befor i get slamed with more and more horror
no help no money
just a dead end in my life
why can't the sky rain blood
blood so there know my pain
my pain with nothing to gain
so come on
make it worse i dare you
i'll be there holding that dagger
to your bloody fucking neck
there to kill you if you say an other god dame word
to make me feel bad again
just a little bit of fucking happiness
without shit heads telling me i should switch to drugs
drugs don't make me happy
and they never will
writing makes me happy
and people put that down to
fuck them there little bastered
and just shove it up your fucking little asses
so here let me die
i'm saying goodbye
for all that i try
it's all to dry
so here is where i cry
looking up at the sky


I Die
i die

i cry

so far away

i went the wrong way

till the day is done

i pulled out the gun


put it to my head

and fulled it with lead

going crazy

look theres dazy

i fall over onto the ground

people come over and look around

down at me

can't you see

i can't take it anymore

i ran out that door

i slamed it behide me

so maybe you couldn't find me

blood dripping down

from my crown

the gun tighly in my hand still

but i was the kill

you see i went crazy

because of that dazey

you gave me

stop smileing down at me

jsut let me be

you fucking asshole

i ant whole

i was never alone

i had that stone

right over there

like i really care

i die now

i can't see that light now

goodbye

don't cry

it's only to hell i am going



Red Light Comeing Down
the brink of silence comes and all was dark and quiet throught out the land as they looked up at the sky and seen the right light comeing down(unfinished)

The Dagger Part VII
give me that sharp thing thats laying on my desk
i'm so aggervated that i just can't rest
forever in my head of misery
so wrapped up in my past history
the pain the sorrow the hours of jsut laying in my bed
thinking wondering what i am going to do
then i look over right at you
you always been there
waiting watching hopeing wishing
for just a little taste of my blood
sometimes i am so tempted to do it all the time
but i just can't find the shine
to pull me towards you
not until now
not until i look over at you
smirk to my self at how easy it would be to jsut end it
to jsut let you bathe in my blood
how easy tat would be
if i came over there to let you see
so go ahead
hand the dagger to me
make it sharp to a fine point
something so sharp that it can peirce my heart
to make it stop beating
so the blackness inside me can excape
the bitterness to wrap around my body like a cape
oh dagger what do i do
when everyone tries to tell me where to go
but it;s only my place to do that
to do what i want
when all they do is scream in my ear
the voices the shadows the whispering make is stop
just someone hand me you
so i can make it go away
make it all go away
and pray
pray that nothing else will go wrong
for someone to ring that tong
the tong of death
when i stab you threw me
and let the red drip
drip slowly onto the ground
let you and the floor be covered in it all around
a puddle thats round
so round it makes a circle
and i am streached out making the penagram symbole
the five symboles of life,love,hopeness and many other things
laying there with the dagger in the chest
for my death was peaceful
quick and painless
yet would my resting palce be the same
so i take you with me
just incase
i need you again

When I Was Young
when i was young i used to laugh and play
then we had to move oneday
to a place so dole and grey
and here for 8 years is where i stay
wasting the days wherever i lay
wishing it was as the old way
so i could laugh and play
without fear of being killed someday
here in this bloody city i die today
break away so i can be free
free from this place in hell today
i just want to laugh and play
like i used to when i was young and small
befor life turned to hell for us all
in this world when we are small and they are tall
the evil ones with a glare in there eyes
of their demon evil lies
and here is where wer cry
because we will all die
for the stupid things others do
for my friends want it to
to be free like we used to be
why can't anyone see
that the pain is causes me
to live in this city killing my country soul
tell me is that the devil's goal
the real devil that said he'll protect us
the one that says we are his children
some father if he lets this happen to us
i'm with lucifer here
who would want to worship man kind
when all they do is distory our once beautiful home
i want die to be a slave
so let me die and be buried in my grave

You Put A Hole In My Heart
You were the first guy i ever fell in love with, and you broke me.Stabbed me in the heart and now I
have a hole there.I still love you and I think I will always love you. The way you sat beside me outside. The way you leaned against me so I could play with yours hair and how soft and perfect it felt between my fingers. I miss the way you gave me a massage and how perfect it felt and how relaxed I got. I miss the way you would nip at my neck, hold me close to you. I miss the way you made me smile or laugh and how you would worry about me if I was upset. I love you always, bot you put a hole in my heart. A wound that will never heal.How much I cried over you. All because I love you.So now I have a new boyfriend who I love very much in my heart, but that hole keeps me aleart because I wont let the hole get bigger. I don't want to cry anymopre. god I miss you so much.Just so you know you made me bitter against love. All because I love you and you hurt me, byt can't you see the tears in my eyes as I hold my boyfriend close afriad I will lose him to like I lost you?

The Dagger Part VIII
There you are again
laying in a blood of my sin
and all I can do is grin
because they are all dead
all covered in red
slash marks all over there skin
deep cuts sinking in
because they hurt me
because they refused to see
just how evil I can be
and there they are hanging from the tree
oh dagger look at our work
look at our masterpiesce
the murder we did
I am so happy
I know you are too
for this is what we do
kill the mean ones
kill the stupid ones
kill them all
let their blood posion the others
the others that are crule and evil
I'll be there with my dagger
to kill them all
for the nightmares wont stop
and all I see is blood and pain
so now I kill the ones that gave me nightmares
and now dagger lay in the blood
enjoy it and let me live in peace again

The Dagger Part IX
Laying there all sparkly and clean
Is the dagger that loves to be mean
To taste blood and cut into people
Licking the savory taste of blood from its blade
Wishing for more in it's blind rage
Tearing the sides of its cage
Poor dagger do calm down
For it is only a matter of time befor blood hits the ground
A sound that is so loud
For you are even more wanting then me
Even though you are clean there is still blood I see
For what can it really be
But, for your evil glee
Evil dagger blade so sharp
You can play a note like that of a harp
When I grip you tight and stab them threw
Because they scream when they see you
Dagger so stronge yet small
We are going to kill them all
Make them all pay
Come on sweet dagger lets go play
For we have no time to delay
Because our new reign of terror starts today
For when we come to kill them will they pray?
When we make there life grey
There blinded by there happy lives
When others hear ther cries
The shudder in there fear
Because it is the horror that they hear
Now that we'er here it makes it all so clear
Death walks with a smile
Come dagger lets stay awhile

Rain Falls Down
Rain falls down
Lightly onto the ground
Drip drop drip drop
The sound of the water drop
Onto the land
A sound so grand
Peaceful and smooth
A woundful grove


Drip drop drip drop
The sound of the water drop
Rain all around
What a soothing sound
Even when it's loud


Drip drop drip drop
The sound of the water drop
Onto the ground
Rain be proud
Rain be loud


Drip drop drip drop
The sound of the water drop
Rain falling fast
How long can it last
Like a magical spell that has been cast


Drip drop drip drop
The sound of the water drop
Rain keep falling
Your noise is such a sweet calling
Rain that fall
For us all


Drip drop drip drop
The sound of the water drop
Rain falls down

[brian]

School Inspiration By Brian aka Toothpick.

To be holding on trying to conform to the way everyone wants you to be and strive to do your best to get a good grade, only to have stoners and potheads get a better grade than you. To simply let go feels great. Falling or jumping off that pedistal that you put yourself on is far better than trying your hardest to pull yourself back up when people keep pushing you off. To try your hardest to pull yourself up after someone pushes you off is frustrating, and to know that once you are back up on that pedistal you will just be pushed off again. To keep fighting seems pointless, yet you cant give up because someone would be disappointed, and you have to continue to make everyone happy. Your sanity seems to fleet as your dreams have soo many times before. You sacrifice your hopes and dreams to see the smiles of others, and all you get in return is hatred. It seems that you cause more harm than good no matter what you do. After a while, you begin to wonder what it is all worth. To go through life knowing that you cant escape becaues that will cause problems that you have been fighting to prevent. Sometimes it seems like you should just give up.


(Poem by my friend and man slave saratos)
You and I
By:M.F.E.

Words from the author: You and I are friends and I don't leave friends, no matter what. I will follow through with my promise. Just wait and see.
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It is never the same, words are not as strong unless there is flesh.

Without lips, there are no words to follow

without their eyes, there is no guidance

wihout their touch, there is no peace

without their skin, there is no warmth

without their smile, there is no kindness

I understand the pain and I aswell share it

the thought of lonelyness, that sad feeling

but never again will I leave you

but never again will you have those tears

for I will help you now and forever

till dawn to dusk

till now and forever

till the begining to the end

with that you will know the pain and sorrow, but not alone.

No, we shall share it togather, as friend, as family, as everything, but never as enemy.

[Midnight]

Blue Eye That Watches Me
When I close my eyes to sleep
All I see is you in my dreams
A single blue eye staring at me
Sometimes I wonder what it can see
Why it just looks at me
I wonder why it wont let me be
Why must it be there
There in my dreams
Dreams that are good and bad
Always watching looking seeing
What does it mean?
This blue eye that I see
Sometimes it scares me
Other times it makes me happy
That dark cool color of the eye
Kind of makes me wanna cry
Other times I feel like i'm gonne die
Why blue eye
Why stare at me
What are you trying to tell
That I can't see or hear
With whispers in my ear
In my dream your watching
What are you waiting for
Is there some kind of door
I'm suspoce to open
Give me a sign
This time
Preey blue eye
That watches me

A Virgin's Dream
A virgin's dream is to be loved

Touched in different ways

Hugged with such passion

Kissed with such force

That I would just melt in your arms

And run my fingers through your hair

Whisper your name against your ear

While you hold me close

And say you love me

Because you never could see

Love in your old heart

For now i'm still with you

Always in your arms

Always smiling up at you

Laying my head against your chest
Slowly falling

Into a virgin's dream

A happy place in my heart

That I will always keep with me

So I can always see

The love I crave and want

Will always be for you

Even if I am not there for you

I will always be there

When you dream

I will play with your hair

And whisper goodnight

My love

My dark prince


The Smell of Roses
Across the wooden bridge

Past the clear stream

Up the stone steps

Ontop of the hill

Is a garden of roses

A sea of wonderful colors and smells

The bright red, orange and yellow

To the light pink and white

All around the garden of roses

The sweet smell washes over me

Like a river flowing all around

Some of the soft pedals lay on the ground

There tear drop pedals with a sweet smell

A peaceful feeling you can tell

All around you a sea of colors

Around the stone of the sweet garden

Everywhere there are roses

Soft sweet smelling roses

Big and tall

And still fresh and green

Thorns as sharp as needles

Protect this lovely flower

From dangerous unsafe hands

But if gentil calm hands touch it

It wont be torn apart

When you take the smell with you

To your home

The smell of roses so strong

Here forever to glory our souls

Here where the sun shines bright

Wild and free

On this hill I can see

The roses

My Footprings

In the woods you follow me

Swift and smooth I can see

You moving so carefuly through the woods

As if I always been here

Left and right

Like a bird in flight

Flying through the trees

Moving so strongly

This is were I want to be

Wild and free

Here in the forest

Where I can rest

I can move freely

So steadly

Though these woods


Where my soul will always run

Happy in the moring sun

Where I can have some fun

Following my heart finally

So come follow me

Come and see

How free I can be

As I move along the tree

This is she

Wild and free

I follow after you

Slowly following

My footprints

Spider Bite]

Fangs sinking in

I can feel the pain agin

Slowly feeling the venom going into me

Flowing in my veins

I become dizzy and light headed

Wrapped into a strange dream

Laying there helpless in a cold sweat

My eyes open wide

I dare to smile

As i see the black spider staring at me

And smirk at the red mark on it's belly I see

A black widow

A strong spider bite

I accept this fate

As she crawls on up my body

Staring into my cold blue eyes

And turns into a young woman

The one I will become

Bitter and Beaitful

With long black hair

I close my eyes

As she disapears

Away from me

She let me be

She spared my life

The willow that is never a wife

The domanate creature

Within my soul

Opened my eyes

To a new way of life

Spider Bite

What I See

What I see

Can't be me

Please don;t let it be

Me hanging in that tree

That big maple

I won't be able

To see me dead with a lable

On my name

It is not just a game

In my head

I can't be dead

I wont be read

In that death book

Where I used to look

There is where I shook

My soul to die

Never to cry

Hanging there

I could hardly care

But I do

Would you too?

Cre if you finally saw your death

In the cold air breath

Of a dieing girl

Swing there with eyes closed

I am just a ghost

Waiting, watching, hoping

Because they are coming

Coming to take me away

This is the only way

For today

I die

Through The Door

Through the door

On the cold wooden floor

Lays something dear to me

But I wont let you see

Not yet for you wont believe

The thing there

The thing here

Right behide this door

On the cold wodden floor

Evil would you call me

If you could see

This that will be

The greatest to make me glee

Ok I will tell you

For it is the right thing to do

You would do it too

If you loved it as well

Tied up on the ground

Hardly making a sound

Is a sweet little girl

Looking up at me

Waiting and watching

I untie her

And she sits up

Hungs me tightly and calls me mommy

For it is the blood of her daddy

That's stainded on the floor

This is my secret

I kepted his blood and his daughter

After that cold hearted bitch stabbed him

Again and again

T killed that bitch now I have sinned

To bad she shouldn't of killed my treasure within


Black Or Light

Black or light

This is the fight

It is our right

To take upon this flight

No matter how tight

It ever does get

Just never let

Ether one will win

For in the end

Which of us really gets in

To do it again

To take a sin

To ne trapted in the pin

Of fighting good vs evil

But which one is truely evil

Darkness doesn't burn our eyes

The light can tell lies

But which one is good

Where will you stand

On the cursed land

In the soft sand

For what is grand

Fight for the right

Black or light

Lets stand

Lets be still

For what will be

Is coming for us

Which will you trust

Or will you just rust

Black or light

Lets fight

Kisses For Aiden
Hello little man of mine
Your growing up just fine
And I know your going to shine
In the light of life
Baby Aiden
Such a sweet baby
From a little lady
You was born
And I have sworn
To love and protect you when I can
And watch you grow up to be a man
A man that is good and strong
One that wont do no wrong
Sweet baby boy
You are not a toy
But one of the loves in my life
A life full of horror and pain
A pain that I will gain
A gain that will do out to be wonderful
So here I am for you
To show you what to do
To give you kisses and hugs
Take care of you the best I can
My little man
Theses kisses are for you
Kisses for Aiden
My baby nephew

Teddy Bear
He holds a teddy bear

Tightly in his arms he watching

Watching me to see what I would do

Do I really know what he sees

Sees in me

Me who he looks up to

To help him with everything

Everything will be fine my boy

Boy with a wonderful to

Toy that is a teddy bear

Bear with a name I know

Know his name is gold

Gold for it is a gold teddy

Teddy so small in his arms

Arms so tiny yet strong

Strong enough to hold him

Him in his arms again

Again he smiles up at me

With open arms he reaches up

Up for me with a smile

Smile that can't turn down

Down I reach for him

And pick him up as he presses the teddy

Teddy against my face

His fur is so soft

Soft and smooth

Smooth fur against my face

Face so soft

I hold him tight and saw to him

I love your teddy bear


The Flames
Flames falling from the sky

Where going to die

Don't even try

To run away or fly

It is not a lie

For these flames

Red, orange, and yellow ames

Down on us

Thses flames rush

And burn everything to the ground

With a crackling sound

From all around

Flames here

Flames there

Fire everywhere

And we just stare

Up at the sky

Wondering if where going to die

For the fire lies

On the ground

Crackling and burning

This way it's turning

In this night it's morning

Flames falling

Fire is calling

To me

I can see

The wonderful flames that can be

Here within

Fire is here again

Flames are in

My soul

I Want To Kill

I want to kill

Kill every living souls

Souls that are evil

Evil within my eyes

Eyes that are so blue

Blue like the afternoon sky

Sky that is red

Red now from blood

Blood that I spilled

Spilled onto the ground

Ground that is bitter and cold

Cold enough to bring chills

Chills that run down my spine

Spine that is so sore

Sore from a sword wound

Wound that bleeds of gold

Gold of the good

Good that kills the people

People that are evil and crule

Crule enough to stab

Stab you in the back

Back to the pits

Pits from where they came

Came to distory us

Us that are pour

Pour in our hearts

Herts that beat steady

Steady as the beating drum

Drum sound all around

Around us when will fall

Fall killling the evil

Evil that will not die

Die evil


Up and Down
Up and down

On the ground

What a peaceful sound

All around

Us all

Music here

Music there

Everywhere

Up and down

The peaceful sound

That clams my soul

Make my happy

Get me singing

Up and down

The beat goes

Steady beat

Wonderful sound

Moving my lips

To the sound of the song

The song so cool

With the beat around us

Up and down it takes us

Putting a spill on our minds

Losing ourselves in it

When the music hits our ears

We tap our feet

Move our bodies

To the sound of music

Up and down

All around

What a wonderful sound

Break Away

Break away

From me today

It is the only way

To do it this day

I just may

Have my say

Of this wonderful strong

Of thje sun rays

That fall down from the sky

Sometimes the beauty makes me cry

For I wont even try

And maybe i'll die

To break away

For someday

For my own heart

Will turn tart

And become smart

For today

I'll break away

Run away

For me

I can see

Above the tree

It wont let me be

So totally free

In Human Eyes
In human eyes

We see so much

From love to hate to each other

Why is this if we are all humans?

A different color or shape shouldn;t matter

Even if you love the same sex

We should respect each other

A child so young could see

There parents getting murdered or raped

Our friends we learn to respect

Back stab us in the end

What are we but animals

Our true nature to kill and distory

This wonderful once peaceful earth

We see homless people on the street

Yet we turn our noises up on them and laugh

To the poor the rich call weak

All because of one bad thing leading to another

What are we now a days

But blood thisty demons

Out for lives of innicents

To take what we want

To kill anything in our way

This is not home

But a huge cage of death

Even the land is dieing

To our selfish needs

So this is what I see

In human eyes

The death the life the pain the sorrow


Trapted forever in unhappiness

Plotting to distory the so caleld weak

In A Bed of Waiting Hands
In a bed of waiting hands

Sits a lonely stranger

Waiting for her lover to come home

Longing to wrap arms around her love

Kiss his soft lips against hers

And hold him close

Waiting hands reach out

Hoping to find im in the darkness

Of her room of wasted tears

She cries silently hoping

He'll come by and stroke her face

And tell her she'll be ok

To go to sleep

Have peaceful dreams

So she waits

And waits some more

Till the darkness finally tore

At her wounded soul

Hair covering her face

Tears flowing down her face

She doesn't know what is true

About what she wants

She lays down and hopes

And finally sees

The pain it brings

So she lays down

And lets the darkness take her

While she listens for a sound

Of hope again

Deep within

She is so thin

She sleeps in

Fadding Light

Fadding light

It isn't as bright

As it was befor

It isn't right

To see it fadding away

Poor poor light

Where did you take flight

And leave us here

Searching in the disapearing light

Come back and fight

Don't run away

Come and stay

For an other day

I wont let you lay

Away someday

Come back today

We need you

Make a light so bright

That it'll make people open there eyes

And see there fate beneath the lies

Of the fadding light

Your streangth is smight

And I just might

Force you onto your feet

Come on light

Don't fade away

Stay and play

Please light the darkness laughing

It is waiting

For us

It's coming closer

Light of The Sun
Sitting outside under the warm sun
Warming my cold acking heart
Brighting my world and making me smile
I think I'll stay here for awhile
On top of this high cliff
Where it is warm
I let the rays warm my soul
Sitting there looking up at the big blue sky
Would today be a good day to die?
For I don't want to cry
Thinking about what i crave
Befor I go to my grave
I will find what I want
And think up here on this huge rock
Letting my mind drift away
Float that way
In the wind today
Light me up
Make me smile
Here I feel free
But, I am not happy
I should be on this wonderful day
Light of the sun
Tell me am I done?
Done on my wasteful quest
Or is there something I missed
Please wrap your arms around me
Warm my soul so it can see
See another line of hope so I can be
Be so free
Under the light of the sun

Help Me
Help me
I can't see
Blood is running down my face
And onto the bed sheets of lace
His here over top of me
He wont let me be
His hitting me with something hard
And alll I can do is scream
What did I do to make him mad
I can't hardly breath anymore
I'm dizzy and sick
My god I'm going to die
Help me help me i cry
As he beats me i try
Try to get away
I kick and hit at him
But I am slowly fadding
Fadding away in the new light
I don't want to die
Help me
I'm sorry
What did I do to make you so mad at me
Let me be
Please stop
He hits me harder
I lay covered in blood
I stop screaming out
He stops beating me
But, I can't see
Because I am dead

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry if I made you cry
I know I push and push for you to try
To fast I wanted it
You should of gave me a hint
I planned it all out in my mind
I guess that was not kind
I'm sorry I can't help myself
I planned it all out before we could meet
And that wasn't very neat
I should of slowed down
Look at what I had
Befor I pushed to what I wanted
I never had love
I got over excited
Forgive me baby
Lets start over
A lot more slower
For you
Will do this together
And work with on another
I'm sorry
Can we try again
This summer I want to see you
But I take my time slow me down
Sorry I pushed to fast
Begged to much
Worried to death
I can't help it
I never had it
Did I hurt you as well?
Tell me
Still your friend in your heart
Please dont make me turn tart

A Wounded Pack

We used to stand together
Always be together
Ahare out food together
Played together
For we was forever
Now we are no more
Falling apart like a wounded pack
Getting explied,dropping out, or moving
Will falling apart faster then the rain can drop
Wounded and hurt
Brokenhearts,broken homes, broken bones
No more do I hear the laughing
No more do I see smiling
No more do we play
No more do we stay
This is the day
That I point this out
Each one of use are wounded
We need each other again
To smile, play and laugh
Come on pack
Whats wrong with you
Moping and depressed
We need fresh meat
Wouldn't that be neat
A wounded pack
I got your back
Lets get together
forever again
For we need to heal
And heal we shall


The Redmoon

The redmoon that shines of red

Is as bright as the blood of the dead

Up there in the blood red sky

The sound of the wind would make you want to cry

Look up at that full moon

So bright

Red light

There in the sky

The moon will try

To take your soul

Trap it in its ora

And never let it go

For the moon takes the falling

Do you hear its calling

The ones that fell

For only one can tell

This story of the red moon

You can see the story in her eyes

And even hear her cries

Her soul belongs to the moon

A huge curse on her family

Forever to suffer for her old sins

And still al the good she's done

Her family is still cursed

She dead now

But, you can still feel her

Under the rays

From the old days

To today

From yesterday

Of the redmoon

The Missing Dagger (The Dagger Part X)

Your gone from here

Lost to someone else

Sorry your starving

My sweet dagger

I know who took you

He will pay

For today

Make his mind break

Make him weak

Make his blood leak

Leak onto the ground

In a huge puddle

Make him sufffer

He hurt another

For we need to be together

I want you to see

What you can be

For only me

Your master

Missing dagger

I know where you are

I'll work my best to fight this crime

It is time

My lovely dagger

To kill that man

And come home to me

The evil is waiting

The blood is waiting

Hear it screaming

When your dreaming

Missing dagger


The Deadman

Hear him groaning

Hear him moaning

See his white skin

His comeing again

Across the smooth ground

His coming around

Reaching out with his dead hand

This is his land

He is coming to get us

His suffering from blood lust

He moves faster

He has no master

Seeking us out

Can you hear his shout

Hide under your bed

Your about to be dead

His coming

Now his running

Breath heaver

Your not safe never

His right there

His almost here

Run away

Go that way

Faster and faster

Hurry his coming

His hunger is showing

Don't scream or cry

Just only try

To run away from his cry

Here comes

The deadman


In A Bed Of Peaceful Dreams

In a bed of peaceful dreams

Soft and smooth like a summer's breeze

Flowing gentily like a small stream

No nightmare no bad dreams

Just wonderful like it seems

Sleeping peacefully

In a bed soft and lovely

Just a dream you always liked

One you never want to wake from

Sleeping peacefully on a cloud

This dream isn't very loud




In a bed of peaceful dreams

Smooth and wondeful like sweet creams

Forver to sleep here

Would you like to go there

Come with me

You will see

The fun this can be

In a nice dream

We could be a team

Let us fly away

In this dream today



In a bed of peaceful dreams

Sleeping so wonderful

Never wanting to wake up again

I wont let anyone in

This is my wonderful sin

In my sleep I grin

It is so peaceful

To sleep and dream

To the sound of the stream


Sleeping Aiden

You lay there

So peaceful and quiet

Sweet baby boy so small

Sleeping there today

Rest for another day

Let the dreams take you away

To a better place

With a smile on your sweet face

In this slow race

In the protecters good grace

Sleep here in my bed

Lay down your sweet little head

On the fluffy pillow

Next to the open window

Feel the wind blow

A sound so soft and low

Dream of a happy land

With a lot of colorful sand

A rainbow shines forever

It will go away never

Float on a dream cloud

And listen to the sweet sound

Dream there again

So I can see you grin

Do you know what I see

A baby sleeping peacefully next to me

For I will let you be

So full of wonderful glee

And make a wish on the wishing tree

In this dream you are happy

It makes life not so crappy

Sleeping Aiden

The Death Of Blackout

You fought a brave fight

Once wild and then taken into a home

They called you weak or a pet

But, you ingorned them

Walking proudly around this city

An old scout wolf from an old pack

Six years old was you

When a young wolf came calling

Trying to harm your old master's daughter

But, you seeked to protect her

Always in wolf form you fought

While the young brute tore at your neck

Snarling and grolwing as you fought back

This is the sad fact

Old age slowed this wolf down

Years of severing and not fighting

Kept fighting till the last drop

The last drop of blood onto the ground

And with a sorrow sound

You died there alone

No one to keep you company

Always hoping and watching

The young ones

Until you are reborn

You wont be alone anymore

You'll help heal them to there core

Rise up Blackout

You are needed again


Looking For Love

Looking for a partner

Looking for a hug

Looking for a kiss

Looking for a face

Looking for a gentil heart

Looking for an understanding guy

Looking for a strong soul

Looking for my desired goal

Looking all over the land

Looking for an opened hand

Looking for a creative one

Looking for a happy life

Looking for a husband

Looking for a family

Looking for peace in mind

Looking to stop time

Looking for the only one

Looking for an animal lover

Looking for a child lover

Looking for a non lazy one

Looking to have fun

Looking for a soul mate

Looking for a permante date

Looking for someone I wont hate

Looking for someone who wont be late

Looking for someone to be there

Looking for someone to be here


Looking for them to be dear

Looking for that speical someone

Looking for a wise one

Looking for one that will support me

Looking for one that wont be jealous

Looking for love


Your Red Lust

Am I what you want

Am I what you crave

Do you like it when I moan against you

Do you like it when I nip at your neck

How do you feel when my hands move

How do you like that

Is this what you want

Is this what you desire

A little pleasure

A simple measure

Moan for me baby

Moan till you scream

Tell me baby

Tell me what you want

Want me to go slower

Want me to go faster

Sweet dirty pleasure

Sweet tingly feeling

I am all yours

I am yours forever

Tied uup in my love

Tied up in my pleasure

Lay there panting

Lay there sweating

Smile at me

Smile because your happy

I'm here for you

I'm here for me

The deepest desire

The deepest crave

Your posion

Your red lust

Blue Sky

Look at the big blue sky

It is spring can't you hear it's cry?

The winter will finially die

Open up the window

Let the wind in when it blows

Smell the sweet fumes of the flowers

Stay out under the sky for hours

Listen to the birds sing

Watch the green grow

See the flowers bloom

And the bees zoom

Smell the sweet honey

Feel the cold water against your feet

Listen to the sound of the stream

Look at the smiling faces

Watch the kids while they race

Feel the sand beneath your feet

Soak up the earth into your body

Let this be a lovely hobby

Find the roses in the garden

Climb the mountains to the sky

Wish that you could just fly

And listen to it's wounderful cry

Listen to the crows caw

Look at the wonder I saw

When I looked up at those fluffy clouds

And listened to the beautiful sounds

Lets fall to the ground

On the grass all around

Some fly

Some cry

Blue sky

Sudden Death

It comes on so quickly

Like a black pleage

Over the red seas

So quick so deadly

A quickl pain

There is no gain

For the insane

Like a black shadow drifting

Over the dead ground

Dead hands

Death lands

Black sands

Bloody sky

Pianful cry

Birds don;t fly

People die

None will try

All will fry

The land will dry

Fater then the bullet goes

Everyone will join there foes

In the ground with bloody toes

Head, body, toes, and feet

Laying everywhere isn't it neat

I can see the death fleet

Death walks with a deadly smile

Please he wants you to stay awhile

With the rest

His done the best

Who is this man

It's sudden death

Dancing Angels

Body's dressed in white

Moving around killing he fright

Twisting around

On the soft clouded ground

Wings twinkle in the light

There in a land so bright

Look at them glide

Look at them slide

Watch them move

To there own grove

Glitering dresses

Such a wonderful sight

To watch them dance

To watch them prance

Around so fast

I will watch it last

Forever they will dance

Such sweet angels

Dressed in white

Laced in gold

With long magical hair

Sparkly wings

Feel there magic

See there wonders

The winged ones

There there magical ones

Feel there feathery wings

As they glide around you

Dancing magic

Daning people

Daning angels

[Midnight]

In A Bed of Desire

In a bed of desire

I can see what I want

The desire, love, and lust

This is a must

Scrape of the rust

Befor I bust

I want this

I desire it

I just want a little bit

Something nice to fit

In my wanting heart

From the amazing art

To throw of the dart

Of the evil that is tart

This is what I crave

This love that I save

It is what I want to have

To have this love

And not let it shove

Back on the bed I lay

And there is where I stay

Laying there waiting

Staying here wishing

For what I want to come true

This is my desire

This is what I must have

Look into my eyes

Tell me you wont make me cry

Promise you will try

And in your arms I'll fly

Please Believe In Me

Please believe in me

Tell me you can see

The determation in my eyes

They will never lie

I wont give up and die

Wont go and cry

But, I will try

I work for this goal

Wont ever let someone tell me otherwise

I'll write and write and watch the pile rise

I enjoy to write

It's my posinious bite

So believe that I can do it

Become famously known

This is my work

It has my heart in it

It has my feelings, thoughts, and desire

It talks about me,my family,friends, and pets

The alive objects

The force of nature and animals

Everything I can think of

I write down in a poem

For my pleasure

To your desire

From the horror to the love

I'll go down in history one day

Eather this or an other way

I'll work hard for it

Write down my wonders

Share them with the world

Hope that they see

The magic in me

The stuff that can be

A Lonely Girl
A lonely girl

Though the open door

On a lonely rock

Looking out to shore

Looking very sad

Unwanted she feels

Cuts on her legs

Cuts on her hands

Tears in her eyes

Blood in the sand


On every grand

On this small land

Crying to death

Lonely and cold

Depressed she is told

Her heart has been sold

She sits on that lonely rock

Watching the waves come in

Over and over again

She sighes slightly

Wishing for someone to come by

To comfert her bleeding soul

For she did not do any sin

She just wanted that sweet warm heart

That had turned tart

And broke her

They watch that lonely girl

By the open ocean

Wondering what is wrong with her

But, all they do is watch

She gets off that lonely rock

And walks towards the crashing waves

Not careing what she was doing

As she felt the cold water against her feet

On and on she moved

Through the murderious waves

Beating against her

Like her broken heart

She kept on going till she was under the water

And there she disapeared into the lonely sea

They closed the door and ingored what they just seen

Forgotten is she but not to the sea


Cuts

Walking around the place with cuts on my arms and legs

Seeking out the ones who did this to me

The pain i feel everyday

The tears I shead

The dreams broken

The hopes torn

And my body is sore

Weak and helpless

To certain stuff in the world

Though you can't see these cuts

Because there not real

Only the pain people caused me

Give me this cuts

If you look into my soul

Your see a broken girl

One who sits here and hopes

One who helps

But loses

The dreams she seeks for herself

She puts it aside for someone else

Only to have her plans change

Things happen

That you can't control

And the pain and misery gets to much

You try so hard to block it out

To plug it all out with a simple word

Turn around and walk away

But it still follows you ever day

You whine and cry

But it never matters

Nothing matter

Only the invisable blood on my hands

Dripping down onto the ground

Washed away in the rain

Like the dreams

This girl is broken

And she's trying to fix herself

Only a little help is needed here

A little laught a little hug

She'll feel a little better

Give her a bit of comfert

Stop pushing her away

The things that happened she worries about

Because she worries about everything

Maybe a little to much sometimes

But at least she seeks out and cares

Cares for other people that might ingore her

She sits here and trys to help them comfert them

And puts her own self behide

Broken dreams

Broken girl

Broken words

That flutter out the door

Little steps

Small words

Many tears

From her

What will it take

To comfert her

She comferts others before herself

Trying to not be selfish

In this messed up world

This dieing planet

Where everywhere is blood

Where everyoen hates

Everyone kills

and more souls are wasted

A waste of life

A waste of time

For what is not ours we take

Killing everyone in our wake

And yet she watches and does nothing

For the world broke her

Broke her spirt and her soul

She smiles only when she dreams

But only that is rare in her blood dreams

Smiling she does when no one is watching afread she'll turn and cry again

Only to be yelled and tossed out

Lonlely she feels

Only noticed by a few

What will she do

Laying all night in her bed

Staring up at the glwing stars

While the ghosts watch her

Hurt her now

And make her suffer

She got hurt again

And she doesn;t know why

Cuts on her wrist

Hurting now

Wishing she'll find the answer

From the pain

To the happiness

what will happen

if she doesn't find her dagger

will she use something else
something pointer and sharper
to make people see
does she want them to see
or does she want them to pay
pay for what they did to her
she seeks them out now
in her angery eyes
seeking them out
and stabbing them to death
"die"she screams
but can you hear her
run run befor she gets her
your next
she's counting up till the one she knew best
run and hide
like the dogs you are
you never showed up
but only to hurt me
cuts on your aarms
Cuts on yuor legs
Stabebd through your heart
Mounted on my wall
Smirking up at you

You desever it all

Enchanted Magic Box

look inside this magic box
so full of wonder and mystery
small yet big with magic
different stones shaped so magicaly
different colors shapes and sizes
differnt meanings to there wonder
small meaning here big meaning there
a red rock here
a purple stone there
a thunder one in the middle
an amitisht on the side
a heart is in there
a gardian is in there
love is in there
in the magical box
with the wonderful rocks
such wonder stories
a pebel here and a pebel there
one that i bought and one from a friend
red shines next to purple
but blacks in the middle
sing to this magic box
full it with wonder
maybe a dream will come true
maybe it'll protect you
open the lid
look inside
feel there powe
bursting with flavor
see the colors
mixed up bright
feel there pull against the night
these will help in our dream when we fight
so we don;t have to make a diffucalt flight
here where in the light
of the enchanted magic box


Wind Blows

Wind blows

Fire burns

Water drips

Earth brings live

Air breaths

Metal cuts

Wood protects

Light shines

Darkness hides

The elements shine

They bring life

They protect each other

They work together

Lightning strikes

Thuder shakes

Rain falls

Tornado's tear

Hurrican's distory

Earthqakes break

The world moves

This way and that

Around the elements

Red is fire

Yellow is light

Green is earth

Blue is water

Clear is wind

Black is darkness

The different colors

Make different rainbows

Elements of the earth

Are such wonderful things

Fire of a flame flicker

Wind of the mountion roars

Water of the rain drips

Star's in the sky shine

Everywhere they can be found

They never hide from us when where down

Elements everywhere

About A Mystery

About a mystery

Can seem crazy

Looking around or being lazy

In the flower bed looking for a dazy

Which a sun flower can be fuzzy

The earth is dusty

Look it's a mystery

One that no one seems to seek out

What can this be about

The earth it'll pount

And it'll dry in a drount

It's a mystery

Mystery full of misery

The earth cries

It bleeds

It's hurting and broken can ya see

Or am i the only one me

That can let it be

Solve this mystery

Make a story

Tell the world

Say the word

Save the planet

Let the green grow

Green that is wonderful

The smooth soft green

Underneath my feet

Get up with the beat

It's spring time

The world shouldn;t be crying

It should be laughing

The joy

The toy

The mystery

The suspence

Tell it

Hear the whisper

Of the tree when they move

The clouds when they travel

Listen to there story

Take in there wonder

Make it so it'll be blue and not red

For there is to be no more dread

No more dead

The story has been read

So tell it to me

So I can see

The happy tree

In the story

It'll be full of glee

And it'll show the honey bee

It'll not cry

It'll not die

It'll try

To go on making life

Life that is about a mystery


A Rainbow

look at the many colors

the blue green purple red yellow and orange

the blue for the water

the green for the grass

the purple for ice

the red for the love

the yellow for the light

and the orange for the careing



a rainbow can be many things

a block of color or a flag

to show someone something pretty



or to show what your proud of



a pretty rainbow



so full of colors



tons of emotions





explaines the elements





and openes up the magic to our world





maybe help us find our pot of gold

the bridge to the gods

the fantasy world



whatever you decide



spread the rainbow

spread the love

spread the happiness

and the hugs

share the kisses

and the smiles

share it all

with the others

show the blue

show the green

show the purple

and the red

show the yellow

show the orange

show how much it is in yourself

the rainbow of color

magical in many things

so them the colors

of the magical ring


A Bloody Bullet

A bloody bullet

Stolen the soul of it's next victum

Soaked in there blood

Who was the person that shoot the gun

Was it a lonely soul getting revenge on the people that hurt there feelings

Where they just going it for the fun of it

To waste more blood like in this stupid war

People killing and stealing because the world is ending

If we work together it might end slower

Our bees are dieing and if they die our flowers die if they die other things die

I love the green i want the green

Please! stop being so mean

Stop the bullets from stealing innicent blood

Use it against the evil

Seek it out and distroy it with love

Inpress it and spread it

Pass on the love

Spread the happiness

Listen to there happy stories

The story everyone desevers

Stop the hate stop the blame

The only blame is people that spread the shame

The shame of our kind being evil

The only kind that kills it's own kind

The innicent blood

The smiling faces

The laughter

Seek out the low self people

Make them happy

Make them feel like there apart of something

Comfert and love them

Just like I do

Everyone desevers to be loved

To have someone they can talk to for support

Stop the stupid gesters

We are all the same

I was bulllied

I bet you was to

Bulling others isn't the answer

So ingore the bullies and be yourself

Never be scared to open your mouth

You are free against this laws

Show them what you can do

Be yourself, be different,be the same, and be speical

Everyone is different everyone is the same

The tears are flooding this earth

Over a broken heart or a lost person

I am still hurting over a broken heart

I cry a lot half the time

People cry about different things

The little money they have

The break up of a lover

The death of someone

The lost of a pet

And so on

So spread the love

Greif just a little more

Show them you care

Do a little dare

And share

The love

Wishing Star

Wishing star

Looking up at the sky wondering where you are

Shinning brightly or slightly bright

What kind of light are you

Looking up at the sky I follow you

You make me smile you make me happy

You as random as can be

Sad or mad you always come through for me

A great friend that anyone can see

We first meet in a wishing tree

Where we had fun and laughted with glee

The years have gone by and your still at my side

My random little friend you are

Long flowing blonde hair

A sweet smile that tells me your happy

Looking up at you I smile

Because I know your always will be there

Somewhere in my heart

I can help you with anything

Just like you help me

I would love it if you was here

Because I am bored now shead the tears

Something only heard with our ears

A deadly secret little surprise

Drowning the sad out with all the lies


Simple friend come on

The star's there all gone

Follow me into the sea

Simple star

Wishing star

I wonder where you are

Come with me

Lets go fly

Into the big blue sky

Until the night we try

Have fun or cry

Lets go have fun

Under the moon or the sun

The sweet smell of a honey bun

Come on lets go hun

The Scorpio's Sting

You have been around for a long time

Been around for the whole crime

Told me what you saw in me

Helped me be me so I could see

Never would you let me be

You tell me what I should do

Even if we got into a fight about it

I am not so washed up now

I have thrown in the towel

Here to stay

Here to play

I am not done yet

I am not going to jet

I am not going to let

People push me around

You helped me be strong and gave me advace

I took some and gave some

I miss you a lot you know

But, you are always here with me somehow

No matter how you are where you are

I'll know you keep me in your heart

Help me get through stuff like me to you


Even when you give me the sting

I can play by the ring

And pluck a deadly string

Until then can I bring

Out myself inside

Thanks for being there

Staying here

A Broken Heart A Broken Soul

We grow up to find love

Searching seeking for it

Some find it some don't

Some is waiting for a hint

Others do more then a little bit

When we find it

It is so grand

Wonderful and magical

I might go on for a week to a month to a year

Then on down the road something happenes

Something makes you smile less

Something gives you more stress

Maybe never wear that pretty dress

They ingore you

Never call and check up on you

They disapear

Leaving you ingored

You all alone

When you find out your already broken

Crying and worring all the time

Wondering what you did to cause this

Staying up all night wondering why

Thinking about it just makes you cry

You try and try

But, you just want to die

A broken heart

A broken soul

At least your friends are here

Staying here for you my dear

We all go though it

We all go though that hit

But that mission is always love

Love within our soul

Then we become happy

Find someone to hold again

Someone that always makes us grin

Our sweet little sin

Having fun today

Having fun yesterday

Laying in the sun

Smiling softly

Moaning slightly

Kissing lightly

Making love

Until the lights go out

This is what I am talking about

Simple wish

Simple love

Having fun

Having love

Having someone

Someone to love

Someone to hold

Someone to kiss

Someone for you

I'm happy for you

Drifting Away

Drifting away

Away from the people today

Today we are dead

Dead to this world

World that is dieing

Deing because we are careless

Careless for our planet

Planet that is Earth

Earth of the elements

Elements of wind, rain, water, fire, metal, and wood

Wood that was once green

Green that caught fire

Fire burning the forest

Forest that had no rain

Rain that stopped falling

Falling like water

Water that the wind carries

Carries us away

Away from the land

Land that is dieing

Dieing our people

People laying in blood

Blood that was split over greed

Greed that are us humans

Humans that hate themselves

Themselves that are crule

Crule who think they rule

Rule of our people

People that are dead

Dead in this land

Land that is forgotten

Forgotten to our eyes

Eyes that can see

See everything that we do

Do the evil deed

Deed that is mean

Mean is the people

People on this earth

Earth that is drowning

Drowning in the sea

Sea that over flows

Flows over the bodies

Bodies that are floating

Floating in the water

Water that is red

Red is now our flag

Flag of the rage

Rage of the souls

Souls that are alive

Alive in this ground

Ground that is brown

Brown that turned to blood

Blood that is evil

Evil people

People that need to die

Die now don't cry

Cry for no one

No one that killed our land

Land that doesn't belong to us

Us that is selfish

Selfish on this land

Tree Of The Dead
Tree of the dead

Can you hear what they said

About the bodies on the tree

For most of the world to see

Hanging limply from a branch

They never had a chance

The rope tightly around there neck

Look at there limp bodies

They were not the goodies

These people where the badies

Ones that hurt the innicent

Ones that killed the weak

We are not so helpless

No matter what it seems

Hidden behide metal beams

Hearing the peoples screams

In terror when they saw our eyes

We are not so weak

We are the ones that leek

Leek into the world

Kill the ones that hurt us

When no one in the world seems to give a damn

They tresspassed on our land

Broke into my home

Hurt my family

Did more then that to me

So laugh at them on the tree

Get a bat and beat them more

For all the torment they put me though

This is my world

I am taking it over

Tree of the dead

Sea Of Colorful Flowers

Look out over the edge

Of a floating ship over this sea

A sea of colors and smells

The sweet smell of roses

The relaxing lavender

The purplr violets

The dangerious sanpping dragons

The silly pansys

Look at the floating colors

The blue of the orchards

The yellow of the dazys

The red of the roses

The purple of the violets

The pink of the wild roses

The sweet sweet smell of flowers

Flowers so sweet and wonderful

The roses

The dazyz

The huge mountion of the sunflowers

The white folowers

The dafadiles

The sucatus

The flowing color

When the wind blows

The smell is intoxacating

It feels like being in heaven

The wonderful smell

The sea of flowers

The colorful colors

Of the different kinds of flowers

Smell the flowers

Smell the world

Smell this heaven

Rage Of A Woman

Rage of a waomna

Is not uncommon

We get mad over different reasons

A broken promise

An other lie

The demanding of a guy

They think we are slaves

Cook them food,wash there clothing

Get them an other beer

Tons of reasons to make us mad

Ingoring me pushing me away

The wosr thing I hate is lies

Saying yes to something then turn me down

I can only take so much before I hit the ground

My rage is this

I want a relationship

I don;t need an other fucker

I just want a relationship

Not a deadly sex freak

Someone who waits and don't ask

One who understands my feelings

One that will take it slow

Help cook and clean

And not oder me around

Most people just want sex

To me that is just nasty

But, for a relationship

It is a beatuiful thing

In my eyes I will see it

And in my heart I will know it

The love I want

If not i'll snap

A woman's rage

Inside Of My Soul


have grown up so sweet and innicent

Moved to a place so evil and mean

Tried to be nice

But, they hurt me

Today I still suffer from abuse

But I help others with there problems

The constint bulling

The evil we see

The people haveing sex all the time

I am an outcast in there eyes

But, I don't care I am what I am

I am an 19 year old virgin

One who likes both girls and guys

I don;t need drugs to make me happy

Besides I'm tamatised

I don't need to drink to get a buzz

A suger rush is enough for me

I don;t need to have sex with who I like

I hangout and support them

I don;t need to be around these people

But, they are everywhere

Having sex with eveyone

Drinking alcohol

Smoking pot

This is not me

Do you see what I see

People lost in this drug

But, inside of my soul

There only trying to hide there pain

But, what is there to really gain?

Sheading Tears

Have you ever been so sad that you just cry

I don;t mean crying a little I mean a lot

Tears falling down fast

How long will it last

From the pain I feel

Sometimes I wish wasn't real

Sometimes I can peal

Peal away to make it better

No more of this horror

No more suffering and pain

What is there to gain

From a broken heart, to a broken home

To some killer in the middle of the night

it is hard to fight this

This stress that I am in

I wish it'll go away

More tears are shead today

From the worry to the want

From the lost love, to a lost life

The happiness is gone

I feel it rarely

It makes me sad

So I cry somewhere

This can't be fixed

It'll take some time

To set over all this trama in my life

Fix it, change it, make it better

Sick of crying

Tired of trying

So don't hurt me

Let me cry

My life is short

I want it back

In A Bed Of Innicent Hearts

Laying in a bed next you you

My body pressed against yours

Your long hair against my smooth face

My arms wrapped around you

A sweet innicent love

Of two hearts thae have meet

Holding each other in the night

Talking about there love for each other

Pulling you closer to me

I stroke you naked breasts

Lightly with my soft figner tips

How smooth your body feels

Against mine thats like yours

Nipping on your neck slightly

As you groan a little moan

Licking your neck now

tasting you flesh

How great it feels

To be up against you

To feel your body

Against my own naked body

Making you moan is so easy

Just as easy as you can make me

Lose controll over myself

When those hands glide over my fleash

loving how it feels

Wishing for more

More touching

More moaning

More cuddling

Like this

In the middle of the night

My sweet sexy lady

Unravled Dreams

These are my dreams

Broken torn and sad

Full of blood and horror

Tears rolling down my face

In the middle of the night

The sharp blades

The strong ropes

The burning bullets

The screaming people

The dead bodies

The taken breath

The tired legs

Losts happiness

Broken smiles

Torn limps

Blood footprints following me

Stalking me forever

The evil shadow

The terror of this stress

Scared to sleep

Scared to dream

Tired eyes drifting off

Drifting thoughts

Stalking me forever

Screamy terror

Horror filled night

More tears

Still asleep

Asleep in my broken dreams

Drems I wish would go away

Away forever unravled dreams

The Tale Of A Fingerprint

A fignerprint is always different

It is special in every way

It tells the story of a person

None are ever the same

The weird patterns that I see

Can tell you about me

Look into the memorizing patterns

Look at their mistory

It could be an evil one

it can be a good one

Each one is different

Each one is special

The lines of the patterns

The tails of our storys

The good the bad

The evil and the wicked

The happy and the wonderful

The tail of our differences

The tail of our life

The desire of our heart

Look at the swoosh of there movements

The hill of the land

The circle of the motions

Our own special thing

Something to hold on to

For one who desires to be different

This is the only why to know

This story that we tell

Of the small lines

Of the big lines

Of our fignerprints

The White Owl

Looking out of the window guess who I see

A big white owl flying over head

Sometimes I think it watches over me

Because I think I am the only on that seen

Seen this wonderful bird fly across the river

On a warn sunny day

Just as the sun was about to set

The sky was full of color

As my eyes followed his movements

To the woods he flew

Those huge big wings flapping

Flapping steadly to a beat

Flip flop flip flop

Against the setting breeze

Great owl

White owl

With those big yellow eyyes of yours

Watch over me great owl

You are a mighty one

A powerful white one

That floated over the river

When I was a young little girl

I never forgot that pretty day

When I saw you fly by

It lite up my heart

It seemed so magical

To see a white owl

In the day light

With the white wings

Glowing in the sky

The memory makes me cry


Spotted Hawk

Always out a window I see you

Pearched on a branch in a tree

Or flying over to follow me

A hawk so speical

Guiding me through life

Protecting me helping me to see

Myself through this pain

Helping me to gain

Gain hope in my heart again

White spotted bird tell me what you know

Help me guide my bow

So I can find the doe

So I can fly away and go

With you watching over this soul

One who is a little broken

One that needs love in this world

Great hawk guide me

Show me the path

That I need to take

How far is it over the lake

With someone there i'll be fine

Even if I am alone in time

Caring is my only crime

Spread your wings and fly with me

Help me to see

The happiness I seek

Forever I desire it

Forever that I need it

I did my share of drama

Drama thats killing me.

[Midnight]

Black Crow

Black crow

In the white snow

It is the only one that will know

The danger in my life

The caw caw of there warnings

Rining in my ear caw caw

I listen to them hear there warnings

Caw caw the black crow

Flying over head following me

Caw caw in the snow

Falling down around me

Big black bird save me

Like you always do

In a tree full of black

It is the crows caw caw

Sitting in the tall tree

Watching over me

Big black birds that I see

Really makes me glee

Of the darkness in my soul

From the pain that did the toll

On my body body maaking me cold

Caw caw in the snow

Blood red drops falling now

Caw caw black crow

I smile up at you

Lay down in the snow

Make it disapear

This horror that I feel

Caw caw in the snow

No more sounds caw caw

The Black Wolf

Once just a little pup

All alone in a cave with family

The darks attacked the pack

And you was left to die

Jusr a defenceless pup

Watching the horror as it went on

Black wolf surrived and travled from that land

In the hornor of her family

She would make herself a pack

To bring back to the west

The last of the western wolves

Going on and on forced breed once

Had a grey pup and a brown pup

Kepted going on when the time was bad

Dragging the pups around with her

Coming back to the land

Made a home in a cave

Was the only domanet female alpha

In the west of the broken land

She sits ontop of the cliff to the cave

Watching over her land

A lonely howl calls out into the night

Of a lonely heart and a crave for love

A bigger family a bigger pack

As time passed it grew and grew

And she is still strong and wise

Even after finding out her father was a dark

And her mother was a light

She bought the wolves together

Never turned them away

Howl the name of the pack so all can hear

Blood Stained Claws Wolf Pack

Talkative Stranger

It is hard to get used to someone

When they are always changing

Months without really talking

Then out of the blue they talk again

It makes me happy when I am sad

A feeling in me that makes me glad

It is so nice to feel like this

To have them talk to me again

I feel so happy I smile and grin

Maybe they where just thinking

Was to busy tp talk

I hope they keep talking to me

Because it makes me happy do you see

To know you still care

When you know I still love you my dear

Thanks for cheering me up

Thanks for talking to me

I was shocked you talked to me

You are sometimes a stranger to me

Sometimes locked away in your life

Sometimes talkative and random

To talk to you is a joy

Because you are my favourite toy

The peace I now have

Thanks for being there

To talk to me

To cheer me up you see

Talkitive stranger talking to me

You make me happy and glee

We could meet under a tree

And have a life happy to see

Aiden's Touch

Sometimes you can drive me crazy

Screaming and crying all the time

But, when I hold you; you don;t cry

You smile and even coo sometimes

You are very special to me

My little nephew you are getting big

Ypur touch on my finger are so strong

Gripping on and giving me hope

I love to just hold you against me

The feel of someone there comferts me

The small smile I see when I stare at you

The laughing coo I get when I talk to you

The strong grip I get when you grab my finger

A simple touch can leave me helpless

In a pleasent why the pain goes away

All I can think about is you

Yourr tiny fingers

Your webbed feet

Your sweet smile

Your simple coos

Your caring heart

Your wondering eyes

Your cute outfits

My newphew

My baby

My little man

My lvoe and joy

My hope and pride

My comfert and friend

Your little touch

Aiden's touch

The Sound Of Crying

Now you hear my crying

While I wish I was dieing

I am so tired of trying

Trying to be happy

Once I get happy the drama follows

Right at my heals waiting

Stalking me as I am happy

Slowly lurking and tanting me

I seek happiness don;t you see

But, everytime I get happy it wont let me be

Always watching, laughing, stalking

Like an evil nightmare I try to run from

This is my life, the pain, the drama

Tearing me down again tearing me down again

Stealing my face of it's grin

Locking me away in a metal bin

Suffacting me for the fun

Someone give me a damn gun

I'll end it myself

Kill it for oneself

This deadly drama

Tearing me down

Tears always hitting the ground

Can you hear me crying

Can you see the tears

Can you feel the pain

Behide the broken smile

Will you talk for awhile

Or just watch me cry

Until I die

The Suditive Smile

Can you see my smile

My smile that draws you in

Into my deadly trap for love

Love that I seek so badly

So badly that I am in rage

Rage to kill anyone

Anyone looking at my pale pink lips

Craving their deadly taste

Taste that is so bitterly sweet

Sweet kiss on the lips

Tasting your love forever

Forever I will find it

Find it and never let go

Let go of the hope in me

Me that is smart and pretty

Pretty for everyone to see

To see me in pain kills you

Kills you like I want it to

To me love is not a game

A game to play on my heart

My heart that is kind

Is kind to everyone I see

See me smile

My smile draws you in

Into love me

Me that is nice

Nice to have someone to love

To love someone is not a sin

Tree Scar's

From the ground I start

Climb from branch to branch

Trying to reach the very top

How excited was I

When I was climbing the tree

My favourite joy

No matter the terrifying risk

I was never afraid of heights

I sook the sky

Sook the thrill the freedom

No one could touch me there

Up in that tall tree

I climbed and climbed

Until I made a mistake

I grabbed a thin branch and with a snap I fell

I fell down branch by branch

Out of the huge tree

I thought I was going to die

My heart was beating mad

And from the 30 to more feet tree

I caught with my strong hands

The last branch in the tree

I was laughing and let go

Fell 5 to 10 feet in a huge ditch

Got up and walked home

My body covered in blood and scars

But, damn wasn't that a good thrill

To climb so high

To fall so fast

And still get up to walk away

This is my tree scar of my wonderful past

The Old Day

I miss the old day

When I was free to laugh and play

The green grass where I used to lay

I miss that young uncaring fun still today

The warm winds weather in May

The smell of fresh hay

The feel of soft clay

The wonderful delisious food on the tray

The open free space of yesterday

The fresh air, the water spray

The warn sun from the sun ray

The wonder of the furture when we was gay

There was no torminting gray

No one to really say

How wonderful it is to stay

In the wonderland of the sea bay

The protection of the goddess Fay

The sweet singing of the blue jay

The loud noise of the horses neigh

The thrill the roller coster pay

We are the free children

Give us our freedom

This is the right wing

Bring back the old days

We want to play

The green grass is were we lay

The woods the wild is where we stay

We demainded it today

The distant memorios of yesterday

Look at the sky

And wonder why

Cursed Soul

Cursed soul
Pay the toll
Feel the pain
There is no gain
Broken heart
Broken soul
Broken bones

Cursed soul
Torn up goal
Smell the blood
Crying tears
Crying screams
Crying teens
Falling ones

Cursed soul
There is no one
No one to laugh
No one to see
Non one to feel
The hate in me
The dead tree

Cursed soul
Ripped up wings
Scary dreams
Scary faces
Scary places
Look what you done

My Flag

My flag

Will not lag

It will be strong

It wont take long

My soul will be in it

With a story in the tale

Background bright and red

The story of the dead

The dragons that fell in love

The golden rain fell

The black storm come

They intwinged together

To give hope forever

A female gold dragon

A male black dragon

Entwinded around each other

The flag of my soul

Is what I see and feel

The acinet creatures

The fallens color

The oppistes together

To protect forever

Listen closely

You can hear them slightly

There wings falpping in the night

Chasing away the flight

The can bring light

The dragons fight

There soul is right

Dragon in my soul

Of the nightmare toll

My Rage

My rage

I finally snapped breaking my cage

I herd there laughing

I felt there bulling

Now I am out

Your going to pay i'll make you shout

In great pain

A drop of blood for every gain

I am different from you

I am my ownself

I protect myself

I'll kill you all

Make you feel small

Force you to cry

Before you die

I warned you first

Before I busrt

What a rush

I'll beat you till you hush

Quiet now

Blood drips

Flesh rips

Metal whips

Broken hips

Wax dips

Torture is fun

Feel what i've done

WHat pleasure it is

To kill them

To make them pay

There dead today

Aiden's Eyes

Aiden's eyes

Not so different from mine

The change color

Those hazel eyes

Bright blue

To soft green

Together there so memorizing

They sparkle and shine

Just like mine

They always watch me

Where every I go

Smiling or grinning at me

Sweet baby that I see

The magical eyes that can be

Within the soul of him

My little man

My little boy

Playing with a little toy

His eyes wonder

His eyes shine

They sparkle with wonderful mistery

Making them better then history

Those eyes

The blueish green orbs

Flutteringly staring at me

Looking at me so I can see

How cool they can be

little Aiden

My nephew

Twinkling eyes

Aiden's eyes

Death Match

Death Match

Sometimes death follows you pushing you to see how far you can go

Sometimes the more death pushes you the more you want to give in and let death take you away

It is easier to just slice it to make it easier,but it only hurts you more

The pain is in everyone so your not alone even thoguh you feel alone

Sometimes you whine and cry while death watches you

Sometimes you stare it right in the face wanting to give death your life

You think about all the things holding you back.Your friends , family, dreams, and other things

Those things give you hope hold your hand guilding you alone while death follows

Sometimes in the night you cry so hard you can't breath and death will be right there waiting waiting pushing

Life is full of dispointment and it can be hard,but hold on be strong

Someone somewhere also is watching you

The gaurdian lurking in the night

The single soul watching you while death watchs to

But sometimes that guardian gives you a push of help to make you strong enough to carry one

Death pushes harder and you fall down on your knees bleeding now

You still hold on gripping onto that little hope to go on with your life be strong and keep going

You stab death back rip it up and stab it back and smirk at it

Walking on torn,but still there

But there is someone else thats here

Someone with you somewhere no matter where you are

When you look up at a star

When you get into a car

That guardian is always there watching you helping you holding on so your feel better

Even at times your so down you can;t get up they do something to help

So watch for death ingore them watch for the gaurdian it will help you

Today life is so hard for me

Sometimes i'm so blinded by the pain I just can;t see

Sometimes i wonder why death wont let me be

But it's kinda making me stronger so I can be free

Free to be strong, free to be myself, free to be whatever I want to be

So hold on tight the road is bummy and i'll be right by your side no matter where you are

Love me and i'll love you

No matter where you are i'll always lvoe you and protect you

Snow Falls

Snow falls

Sprinkling down on the ground

White dust all around

Magic flakes sweet sounds

Listen to the magic that calls

Calls us outside into the night

To watch the snow fall down

Magic in a small town

Covering the street,roads, and side walks

Magical powder everywhere

Twinkling in the sky

Up in the air so high

White magic that can fly

So slick and shy

Magic that is here

Magic that is there

Magic that is around us

White dust

Magic that we trust

Can you feel it's lust

It's want to please you

Wants to make you happy

It maks you smile

When you see it falling

Magic that is calling

Snow that is covering

The ground so white

The frost will bite

But the flakes will rest

Rest in a magical pixie dust

Dust falling all around

Falling down on the ground

What a sweet sound

The twinkling of the snow

Tell us will you go

Go outside in the white

Tell us what you know

About this magical snow

Snow falls

Cutting Again

Cutting again

Right into my plae white skin

I can feel the devils grin

While I commit this sin

An other drop

The world forgot

The pain is here

It is everywhere

Here and there

Where ever I go

So i'll hurt myself

Make the pain go away from oneself

It is impossable to forget

All the pain that I get

So I give myself more

Go in my room

And lock my door

Forget that I am real

Waiting for my scars to heal

Looking out my window at the sky so teal

Feeling the blood rolling down

Can they even see me frown

When they trick me

To make me do things they can't see

This hurt wont let me be

Sometimes I wish I could flee

Run away from everything

Trying to find everything

Trying to find something

Am I this alone

Or am I blind to them

Even if the blood is for him

Cut In My Skin

Everytime you lie it is a cut in my skin

When you tell me you love me it is a cut in my skin

When I stare at you it is a cut in my skin

When I cry all night because of you it is a cut in my skin

Everytime I think of you it is a cut in my skin

The word love is a cut in my skin

The paunful lies are a cut in my skin

When I long to kiss you it is a cut in my skin

The thing I want is a cut in my skin

Broken hopes and dreams you promis is a cut in my skin

Fallen for you is a cut in my skin

Trusting you is a cut in my skin

Hugging you is a cut in my skin

Sometimes I feel like everything is a cut in my skin

When you smile

When you laugh

When I cry

When I dream

When I wish

When I hope

When I crave

When I long for it

When I see it

When I feel alone

When I am writing to you

All these things are a cut in my skin

A cut in my skin

For all of the sin

In the world

This is what I want

Black Soul

She sits in a darkned room

Cold and black with a hidden moon

Eyes staring out into the darkness

Blacked body wounded soul

Flame as black as night

A gown so dark and smooth

Her soul is stuck here

Here in her castle on her though

To many tears fallen

To many peages left callen

So much her soul is blak

Therefor she is trapt

Trapt is her broken heart

Her broken soul

Never again to be happy

Black evil

Black flames

Black coldless eyes staring

Staring right into your very soul

A soul that sucks the life out of you

For she is longing to free herself

Free herself from her own curse

The curse of her family

Of the haunted red moon in the sky

One that makes people die

The city lost

The people cry

The humans try

To kill them all

These creatures wont fall

Listen to her call

Unforgetable Past

Unforgetable past

How long will this pain last

Remembering the pain of yesterday

Feeling the worries still today


Keeping me locked up inside

Afrade to go outside

Fear of the past following


It's always watching


Stalking me in the dark

Following me in the park


Always right there watching me


Always around can't you see


My past, the pain, the sorrow


People tell me to forget ,but what do they know


They are not me they don't know where I go

They don't know what I been through

You can't just forget


All the pain that you can get


From the past


The spell that is can cast


It can move extreamly fast


Forever this pain will last


Before you know it your dead

Full of dread


The books they read

The things that lead

The past that tread

The fear it breed


To learn from it makes you stronger


So you can live a bit longer


Freedom to be


All that you can be for people to see

It is hard for me

When people doult my ways

This is me weather or not you like it anyways


I'm smart ,and funny, and loveable


I am extreamly hugable

My past wears me down

So sometimes I lay on the cold hard ground



While my eyes look around


My mind listening to the haunting sound


A sound that can be so loud


Deep down in haunted misery


My life is a mistory


Only The Heart Can See

Only the heart can see

What I really am to be

The pain I been through has hurt me

The pain inside has grown

Sometimes I turn into stone

Push things away and block them out

Ingoreing the people's shout

It is so hard to do sometimes


When we are all going through some hard times

The heart gets hurt worse them anything else

Healing can take a long time

But slowly we smile

We stay awhile

To see what will happen

Take risks to see what we can take

This life is so hard for us to make

Happiness can come easy or hard

It is just how well you can draw the card

But sometimes it is the wrong one

It is hard to see what we have done

To ourselves sometimes

To the broken rimes

Wounded dreams

Bloody streams

The heart is dying

A lot of crying

I've done a lot

Letting myself cook in a huge pot

Masked myself in lies

Just to comfert myself and cut the ties

I'm tired

The heart can see

All the pain in me

But with slow movement it will heal

So my dreams can be real

Taste Me

Baby do you want to taste me

Do you want to know how I feel

Being next to you

Feeling your warm breath on my neck

How it makes me trimble

With delight inside myself

I finally found that oneself

To make me happy

To make me smile

To make me laugh

How I love how you talk to me

How you comfert me

The way you see

The best I can be

How much I love that feeling against my neck

To moan and groan and tilt my neck

To become weak and melt and like it

To moan a little bit

To enjoy the comfert that I get

Wow what a feeling

The loneing loving

One thing I always wanted

Comeing to me slowly

Finding someone who is so lovingly

Feeling of lvoe so strong

It's never wrong

To love someone

To hold anyone

To want something

To get that wonderful thing

To hold onto it

To crave it

To beg for it

No matter how much pain you get

The wonderful feeling

On love in the air

This is only fair

Taste me

Make me see

The love that can be

Bruises On Me

These marks they come and go

Just like people in my life come and go

You still think about then from day after day

Wondering when they disapeared

Just like the blackish bruise on my leg

Some come and some go

Wondering who will stay and who will go

It's hard to wounder what would happen

If all of them disapeared

In a clouded smoke of dust

Drifting off into the distance

Never to be seen again

You wish you know why this always happens

You expect it and feel it,but you can't forget it

It eats away at you like acid eating away at your soul

Who cares and who dares to make my life harder

People get in the way and some help you all the way

Somethings you do yourself and somethings your need help with

Like the bruises on your skin

Sometimes you know waht caused them and sometimes you don't

You get mad or angry and they disapear

You don't mean to push them away

Some many things are confuseing you

The simple pleasures of life you seek

The smile faces clouding your mind

The fluttering whispers echo in your ear

Should you do this should you do that

Am I doing this right am I doing this wrong

Will I be good at it will I not be good at it

Things make us think sometimes to much

Lying awake at night thinking about it

Seeking you want

Working at your goals

Wondering around with bruised toes

A bump on the head a mark on a leg

Things we don't know how it got there,but they apear

Life seems to disapear

Right under our eyes

Wondering what kinda lies

Where told to our face

While we played with sweet grace

Who was there to trace

Out our life in the end

Is it you or is it them

You decide or you could hide

Don't fall when the body feels the tide

Life is a wild ride

Sometimes it's harder to find

When your clouded behind a weird mind

Maybe the bruises will tell the story

Maybe I wont worry

Inside My Head

Inside my head

I can see that I am dead

The magical thread

That was tied to tight

That wasn't right

Inside my head

There is a lot I dread

Past fears

Future wants

Fadded memories

Wounded heart

Different things

Many rings

Hear the bells

Hear the story that it tells

About the lonely girl

Alone one her wedding night

Stainded blood on her hands

From the stupid mans

Who seek more pleasure then they can get

So they go out and seek more till the get hit

Sad story that it my seem

What really is a dream

Nothing it what it is

People play you like a toy

Because they think you are a joy

But what is it they really enjoy

A lovers snare

A person's care

There long hair

Lifes not fair

Inside my head

I see the dead

The dead of the men

Men who are selfish

Selfish to wait for love

So they go around like whores

Cheating on there so called lovers

Until the whicked hovers

Revenge in there hearts

Heart that was once theres

Theres that are now broken

Broken until little pices

But the man is dead

Dead from the dread

Dread the woman wrote

Wrote what they read

Read about the dead


Running Away From Today

Running away

From the life we all know

From the things we fear wishing they would leave us alone

From our heart that turns into stone

When we see others with things we wish we had

Sometimes it makes us way to mad

The jealousy that we go through today

The reason that we go

Far from here

It's a sad story my dear

The want

The pleasure

To not be alone anymore

To enjoy a delicious smore

To the simple things in life we take for granted

From the things we wanted

So we run away

Far from the place with the pain

Hiding it away from us

Finding it hard to trust

The people before they rust

Turn away and leave you a stray

A single ray

That lights the way

To the one path that we should run to

Some things hold us back

Something’s we can lack

But our own skill we can save

From the fame that we crave

Not wanting to be alone

Aggravated so much that we groan

Wantingly with a angry moan

A deep sigh

When we are up so high

Wondering around we think then cry

Wondering how hard we should try

Looking up for the answers in the sky

Laying around wanting to die

Staring at a blank tie

Wanting to go fly

Fly away

Far away

Seeking the path

That is right

With all my might

I will fight

Till I find my path

Don't stand in my wrath

[Midnight]

Setting Sun

Setting sun

Sitting here looking out the window

At the big colorful sky

I watch as the color mixes like dye

The blue, the purple, the pink, the orange

Wonderful colors as the sun sets

Slowly a sea of color spreads

Being pulled together carefully through threads

Merging together to make a picture

A picture of color so smoothing and gentle

Watching the sky as the sun fades away

The color spreads like a giant butterflies wing

Flapping in the air

Saying goodbye to the sun for an other day

Saying goodbye so it can rest today

The sky looks like a sea of color

Swimming around following the sun

Until it's last ray goes over the hill

The colors follow it still

Until they disappear forever in a sea of blue

Clouded by darkness as it rises

Making the butterfly wings disappear

In the magical night of the sky

The stars spread out like lighting bugs

A big blanket of twinkling hugs

A huge big black rug

With sparkling light

Spreading all through the night

Some are bright

Butterflies play while the sun goes down

Following the sun to the ground

Following the sun that is round

Sea of color all around

Watching the blanket of twinkling stars

Looking up at the planet mars

The milky way is one of my favorite candy bars

Catching the stars in big jars

Until the next day when the sun will rise with the rising butterflies


Why Wont The Pain Stop

Why wont people listen to me

I cry in the night and no one can hear me

So why should I care what I do

I hate my life it is not worth living through

Can you hear me

When I need you can you hear me crying

No you don't care I’m to big for it now

Help me someone does my family love me to

To my heart I don't know where to go

So what do I do


Just kill me now

Or help me through

Help get through the gate

I can't debate

To the one I love

To the one I hate

Go away you don't care

You don't listen to me

I can't tell you anything

So why should I tell you

You lie that is why

I am mad

So mad I can hear my time fading away

To the dark

Where no light can go

I like it with no light

It just brings pain back again

Wounded Me

Growing up with a disappointing time

From the rapid deaths

To the sheaded tears

The broken hearts

Many lies for broken promises

Depressing moods, darkened days

Hidden hopes

Unsettling dreams

New scars

More pain

Paranoid minds

Shadered bones

Wounded people

Feeling hurt

Hurting myself

Causing myself pain

Staying up late crying for hours

Watching the blood stain my sheets

Laying in bed hoping to die

Just trying to figure out why

Why I always cry

Why I feel miserable

Why I crave to do bad things to myself

Sitting there bleeding to death

Mooring for myself

For I am in a weird mess

My body wants what I can't give it

To find a honorable soul to take it

Up to the sky with them

Feel free and fly away

Feeling new things that I wouldn't do yesterday

What the hell is wrong with me

Wake me up from today

Friends Forever

Fading Away From People I Know
friends are spoce to be friends forever

there spoce to be by your side no matter what


we all make new friends and still have our old friends as well

things change they disapear

your left stranded alone and you disapear

fade away into your own shadow

watching as the world passes you by

you meet new people

talk to them

feel like shit when they disapear

feel numb and beat when they judge you

on some stupid book they believe to be holy

no one has a right to judge

just because of something you like or do

but friends they should hold onto you

because who knows when they might need you

you help them they run

you tlak to them there silent

you hug them they stab you

you love them they hate you

you take care of them and they beat you

some make you feel good some make you feel low

so in a sea of emotion your all confused

but you sit and think and see the news

it's in the sky

and we will know it even when we die

things change

but we can't change it

we have to live with it follow it

stab it back take it back kick it around

drag it back

make them see

the friendship that can be

forever and always

forever in my heart

there my family

my love and joy

my huggable friend

Muderer Of Men

You say I am hot

You say that I am sexy

You want to pick me up

You say that you love me

You stroke my thigh

Grip it slightly

Take my clothing off

And then fuck me

Tell me to leave

And come back when you want me

I cry because I want love

But no one will give it

They just want a little sex

To make them happy

No love

No hug

No kiss

No date

A confused soul

A broken heart

A weird mind

A scared girl

Someone who was molsted by force

You tant to play with her

She ends up getting mad

All guys love her

She gets out her dagger

Goes to his house

Stab him in the heart

Make him pay for the pain

Tell him you love him

While he bleed on the bed

Put the dagger away

And sit on the bed

Make a bloody list

Of men to be murdered

All because

The had no respect for woman

Sleep Beside Me

Sleep beside me

Wrap your arm around me

Cover me up slightly

Tell me you love me

Whipser it in my ear

Hold me close

Let me know

You love me so

Show me you care

Show me that you know

How to treat me now

I'll rub your back

Fix you some food

As long as you

Love me so

I'll do the best that I can

To make you happy

If you make me happy as well

I want to love

I want to be noticed

I want to be cared for

Not like a slave or a whore

Just like a human

Just like you

So I can love you

You can love me

And we'll be together

Forever you see


Forgiveness

Sometimes we do things where are not proud of

Sometimes we murder, kill or hurt

Scream at someone, blame them for something

Sometimes we assume something just because of what someone says

Sometimes we jump to fast to hurt someone before we stop and ask ourselves why

It only takes a small word, a smile, a touch to make us cry

To make us feel low to the ground

To give us a black eye, to pull our hair

To loose our temper and beat you to you bleed

But there is always forgiveness in our souls

For the stupid things people do

For their quick judgement that rules us out

For the clothing we wear

To the things we do

To how we are raised and have grown up

Sometimes what we've seen for years we think is right

To hate the black people for not being white

To hate a prep for dressing nice

To hate a goth because they where black and "worship satan"

For calling cutters a small excuse for attention
(only when they talk about it then it actually is, same w/ suicide)

A simple word like hello is all it takes

To make a difference in our world

Forgiveness for a different thing is wonderful

We are all the same yet different at the same time

Why hate what is different when you are different to

Forgiveness helps us see what we did wrong

To admit we hurt someone for no reason at all

To admit that hurting someone for being different is wrong

And sometimes the hardest thing to do is forgive ourselves for the way we treat others

For the regreats we have in our life

To admit that we were wrong or did something wrong

To forgive ourselves is the hardest thing to do

But forgiveness is a wonderful thing

Because all we need is

Forgiveness

Simple Words
Simple words

Writting on the wall

Of an abanded building

Long forgotten what happened there

The plea the begs

The blood on the wall

The dead bodies everywhere

The simple words that they cry

For help for love, for mirsey ,for them to stop

The sound sof the whip cracks

The sound of the dieing screaming

The sound of tear drops on the ground

A innicent soul count in the middle of this war

The blood spilled the craziness

The killing the blood

Some bomb dropped on our enemies to kill them

But killed tons of children instead

They say war is for peace, for new,for order

What peace what order

The world is in chaos

All because where selfish

We want oil

We want peace

But, we force it on others

Or take it by force

So everyone dies in the end

What peace

There is no peace

Everyone ahtes everyone else

Everyone whats what the other one has

Simple word of the people is

Stop the killing

Stop the war

Stop the pain

Innicent children are dieing

As well as people

More soilders get killed

And for what

Oil ;oil we have no right haveing

People yell at others for coming to America

We have no right haveing it

We come here killing the idians, took there land,raped there woman

Just like in scottland

We are doing it everywhere else in the world

You change the relgion that people beleive for years all because it is the new land so your relgion is right

You force things on people and your selfish

You push them around shove them around

And no one decides for themselves

A simple word like I want to be my own person I want to do my own things...is all we need

A simple word like stop the killing

Stop being selfish

Share what we have....share our land

This land is ours and it is yours

It is not just ours

It is everyones

A simple word

A simple wish

A ack of stupidity

Can kill the world

A ack of kindness

Can heal it

Simple words

Can change the world

[Midnight]

Mood Ring

The mood of the ring

Changes colors as we change

Blue green yellow orange and black

From warm to cold

From mellow to emo

From happy to sad

The mood ring chances with the clouds

While it rains while it shows

When the sun rises when it sets

The colors it means when where in a different mood

Almost mysterious in some ways

The mood ring changes colors

Rapidly when we have mood swings

The rapid colors of a magic wheel

Faster then a speeding bullet

From blue to black

Just like that

What do you think about that

The moods of the mood ring

Shifting like the seasons

Sometimes without reason

Dragonfly

Dragonfly up in the sky

Flying around in the air so high

Colorful wings glittering in the light

Transparent in the night

Dragonfly fly away

To a land where you belong

Pretty dragonfly with colorful wing

The sparkling blue of the skies above

Seems to disappear in the sky

Up in the air so high

Wings like tear drops

Fluttering in the sky

Dragonfly wings can cry

When the world is dry

Where will they fly

They thrive in the wet lands

Sparkling against the waters edge

Close to the magical tree

Where they fly free

Dragonfly fluttering around

Making the water look like a colorful ground

You can see them all over

In the air they hover

The sky is there cover

The water there home

The earth there tomb

Dragonfly up in the sky

Fly away when the tear drops cry

For when the earth is dry

Everything will die

So make a tie

So you wont hear the lie

Of the secret land

Up in the sky

Here is where you stand

Near the magical tree

Where you fly free

Spirit Has Died

The spirit we had as a kid has died

We go around doing things where shouldn't do

We turned to bad people on the earth today

Where murders, killers, rapists

We are not the sweet innocent we used to be

Because I can see

What this world is doing to me

It's changing me killing my spirit

Making me want to kill and do evil things

Mostly because that’s what everyone else is doing

There blinded by the drugs they do

There blinded by the sexual pleasure they get

It's clouding my mind

Because I am not like that

I refuse to let my soul die

To let it die with who I am

I wont let guys change who I am

I wont let my spirit die

Don't let yours die

In the confusing world where in today

Come with me and stay

Don't let your spirit go a stray

Don't sever it up on a silver tray

Keep it intact don't let it fade away

Don't let the spirit drift down the bloody sea of chaos

Let it stay with you

Be who you are

Not what others want you to be

You are fine the way you are

Our spirits have died


Murdering Dagger The Dagger Part XI

Murdering dagger

So sharp and shinny

Metal that can perch through the weakened flesh

The weakness of men with no respect

No manners or control of there hands

My lovely dagger cuts into there skin

Cutting off there pride as I whisper in there ear

Respect us we are not here for your pleasure

Hurt me and I’ll make sure

Your suffer greatly for making me cry

I'll make you bleed a mile long

Because you thought I was not strong

The dagger will cut every inch of your skin

For men that hurt me again

Broke my heart tattered my soul

Ripped my spirit and put it in a jar

There is woman with pride today

There not running around like the sluts today

Some are kind and nice and caring

You should of thought about that before you opened your mouth

So now your dieing

What a wonderful sight

The blood stained blankets

Seeking into the mattress

The wonderful pleas from the disrespectful guy

Who put his hands on me and gave me a bruise

Wonderful dagger make him cry

Cry stupid boy till you die

Dagger I might try

To change there mind

For they better have respect next time

For if you listen to our little rhyme

You might see there evilest crime

Of all people that we are today

Brainwashed to follow what they want

Lovely dagger do not listen

For they sever in the kitchen

Like the slave there made to be

I wont be brainwashed can't you see

That the only person I am is me

Wonderful dagger we are done here

Let this man rot with his soul that I have changed

Maybe there learn a little respect

Where not to be ordered around like we are there property

We are not here for there pleasure or comfort

We are here to enjoy ourselves

Without the brainwashing of TV, music, and some books

Lovely dagger lets go chop them up

And put there organs in a glass cup

And send it around to the ones who did it

So all of them will get hit

For that when they get bit

They will know what it is

For our murder is his

His fault for his disrespect

Lovely dagger lets go away

Until I need you next for an other day

Can't Sleep Living Nightmare

Can't sleep in a living nightmare

When the walls seem to eat you alive

Late at night when you can't sleep at all

Makes you shuddered when you hear the eerie call

The noises of the night can get to you sometime

Even when the clock ticks on anytime

For the living nightmare that we can't sleep

Sometimes give us a scary leap

The chills that can creep

Up on our spine

To the glowing eyes that can shine

Creeping nightmare of mine

Living in a world of crime

Makes you paranoid when the shadows move on your wall

There can make you seem so small

When something bothers you like that it can seem so tall

And then your never know when you will fall

For nightmares haunting us is weird and true

For some of them we can't understand or get a clue

We have them over and over

There always under cover

There in the night where they hover

The dark thoughts of our mind

Don't look inside you don't know what you might find

It can be cruel and unkind

When you look at what you can see

To the evil sounds that can be

This evil thoughts they scare me

Evil nightmares

To the sounds of anyone that cares

For the eyes that stares

From across the room

The doorway can be so gloom

The shadow that can loom

There everywhere

Can't sleep nightmare

Theses dreams aren’t fair

Smell the blood in the air

The ghosts will dare

To make me mad

The feelings make me sad

I lost my dad

To someone who has had

Someone to love little lad

To the ice pad

To make us feel better

To the things we can't get

To the things we hit

This world I don't understand it

This nightmare that I live

What am I suspose to give

To the liveing nightmare

In my head

Tasting The Rain

Tasting the rain as the earth turns to grain

From the many miles of clouds a day

It has to rain someday

The earth dried up

The water has died

The animals disappear

The people die

The winds change

As the world gets hotter

The people lose hope

As they sit around and mope

Bring on the rain

As you soak up the sun

Let it fall down

Let it hit the ground

Let it fill the earth all around

Till the water fill the river so proud

To the storm that is so loud

To the rain drops in the crowd

To the sprinkling rain of yesterday

Fill the earth that is dying today

Rain drops fall from the sky

Brings life to the things that might die

Soak up the earth, bring life, try

Rain fall like tears that we cry

So this earth will not burn and fry

So the rain clouds will not stray

Away from us

Bring the rain let it rush

Let the rain brush

Across the sky up so high

Open your mouth as the rain falls

Hear the rivers and streams to there mourning call

So the trees will grow tall

To the rivers that run free

Tasting the rain

Killing In The Name Of Satan

Killing in the name of Satan

Soaking my hands in his blood

Feeling his fire against my flesh

Savoring his dirty little mess

Earth on a silver platter

Souls falling through the gate

Younger kids with dirtier sins

Crashing through the gates

One by one they fall

Killing for the pleasure of my master

Feeding him blood with a ladle

With his souls I cradle

Warm them up with sin

Hoping they do it again and again

One by one the fall

Till there blood he'll have them all

As they listen to the sirens call

Singing a wonderful song

A mile long

Against there ears

There bodies move

Over the edge

Of there willing heart

To live

To breath

To sleep

No more in hell your his smore

His snack

His breakfast

His lunch

His dinner

His everything

To please him is a sin

And he is the one that will win

Over and over again and again

Flesh to dust

To dust to ash

From ash they burn

There souls belong to him

Your his little gem

He wears around his finger

Savoring the color

Of his mighty thrown

Wishing for that lustful moan

Of his mistress slave

Can you feel what he will crave

When your burning in your grave

Can you be extremely brave

To avoid the sin of the creatures of today

Not let it brainwash you for his day

Live an other night

In god's sweet light

For when the shadows come to play

Where will you lay

In his deadly claws

He doesn't make all the laws

For us the human can be the flaws

Of the Satan rain

Blood on every grain

Streams from the deadly strain

Death on a late night train

Satan's rain

Crawling Aiden

Baby your getting so big

Just yesterday I could of held your tiny little body in my hands

Now your growing up so fast

Being with you makes me smile

Because I know I will want one someday

Holding you taking care of you

It's the most treasuring thing for me

Having you smile and grin at me

Running your tiny fingers through my hair

Sleeping on my stomach

Crawling over me

Baby Aiden

So big so fast

My sweet baby boy

Little nephew

Little brat

Sweet Baby

Laying with me tonight

Stroking your back lightly with my fingers

Just to get you to sleep

Stop your crying

Sleep baby boy

Crawl over to me

Tell me you love me

Getting so strong

Soon your be able to walk

Those bumps and bruises

That will come later

Then your talk

And tell me how much you love me

Baby Aiden

Baby boy

Your my favorite

Sleeping little toy

Your a lot of joy

Aiden's story


Relaxing Against The Wind

Relaxing against the wind

Sweet summer air

Finally in love with a boy

This one doesn't treat me like a toy

I'm happy with him

His genital touch brushing my face

How our fingers lace

My heart beats and race

For this I can embrace

For me to love again

Love someone so kind and caring

Someone to pick me up and take me away

I'll ride the wind with him

His lovely wonderful gem

His diamond his love his sweet little angel

Who relaxes against the wind with her wings spread wide

Drifting off in that wonderful place

Loving him and his sweet genital grace

This time I played the ace

The lovers card

The card I love

He is my king

A king that loves me

Something special I can see

Our his heart I can be

Myself around him

No one else, but he

Will love me for who I am can you understand

When your relaxing against a stand

And feel something so grand

The feeling of his soft hang

Brushing against my flesh

The loving feeling

From his soft hands

Puts me to sleep relaxes me

Make my worries go away

Flutter and fly away

This is happening today

To spend the whole day

With him holding me in his arms

Whispering he loves me

Against the wind hold me

Chewing On Magic

Chewing on magic

Wonderful sweet magic

That we taste in the air

It helps us relax

It makes us calm

It helps us see

All that we can be

Magic here

Magic there

Tasting the magic Everywhere

Tasting it here

Tasting it there

Tasting it in the air

Sometimes when things arn't fair

When just have to pull up a chair

And wait for what we desever to come

Giving us a break a little something

We can hold onto

If magic that can make us into the blind

The the blind can see

And the seeing can't see

Because there blind to the magic

But now it's here helping me

Tasting it,but I can't see

It is around me

It is around you

It is everywhere we go

It can be anything we do

From this writing

To talented drawing

To finding a lvoer and making each other happy

To getting a job to support your needs and goals

To set more to get more

Without really knowing

Where the magic comes from the dust

The dust in the window

The magic that will grow

It's in the snow

I see it I know

Magic that tastes so good

In my mouth my loving tounge

Wishing away my troubles

In the doublt of time

In the mind of my own

Chewing on magic

Chewing on the life

That I made for myself

I molded it

I made it

In this world on my own

Just keep it up I beg you

Don't fall on your knees

Don't blow away i'm so happy

I tried to hard

I desever it

I gotta get

My mind together

Sweet magic

Keep me safe

I am trying my best

Save me

Help me can;t you see

I need to be

I need to be free

Let me keep what I got

I earned it

Chewing on magic

Such sweet magic

Magic in the air

Please don't scare

My happiness away

For this day

I am trying I tried today

I don't wanna cry

I don't want to die

Just fly

Around this magic

And let it take me this way


The Moon That Will Fall

The moon that will fall

When the soul that will call

For the death of the universe

All will perish under the waiting hands

Of creation for better understanding the life

The life of our soul

Can’t wait to pay the toll

Of our debt to the planet

To the Earth and to the moon

The crashing thunder of sound will fall

When everyone can see it all

It’ll come straight for us

And leave us in the dust

The dust of the past

The blood the bones

The terror the groans

The weak the fallen

The sound the screams

The bang the boom

The crash the thunder

The flash the light

The moon is falling

Falling from the sky

We are all going to die

Die while we cry

Cry as he try

Try to run from the sun

Away from the fallen moon

The silence the gloom

Rio

Baby if you died tonight

I'll keep you in my arms

You know I'll hold you tight

I'll stay here with you every night

Sit and wait right by your grave

Wishing to see that face I crave

My heart it breaks, I miss you babe

I count the days you make me wait

I'd die right now to be with you

Every night I pray

You're standing by that gate

I hope you'll guide me in

Cause I'm lost with out your love

I hope you saved a place

Standing there in your soft sweet grace

Waiting for me to return to you

Baby I love you

I will always be somewhere for you

I’ll kill myself so you wont be lonely

My baby, my Rio, my love, my savor, my angle

I’ll coming for you

Shine

Shine

Shine so bright

In the dark

In the light

Shine for the hope of the city

The fallen the weak

Help them get up give them hope

Shine brighter then the sun the moon and the stars

Shine more then anything in the world

Light up our hearts

Light up our spirits

Show them the way

The way to stay alive

To die to live

To be helped to be free

Shine for the whole world to see

Little boy of five

Let it shine

It’s bright and so fine

Blinding yet awakening

Shine smile be happy be free

Let the whole world see

That you’re the one

The bright the chosen

To protect the family

The young

The city

The land

Make it peace through the land

Make it sweet soft and grand

Make it grow in the sand

Shine raise a hand

Raise up and demand

Shine little boy

Shine

Mureding Voices All In My Head

Murdering voices all in my head

Walking around as if I am dead

Words spinning this way and that

Making me dizzy in one quick snap

What is going on with me now

Wondering in this world so foul

Trying to be the best in everything

Whatever I do it is still not enough

Trying to make my own plans work

People come around being a fucking jerk

Saying I’ll fail in the missing I seek

All those words all inside my head

Can make me sad and make me stay in bed

Sleeping my life away

Losing weight the bad way
Depression go away today

Words turn to gold someday

Somehow I am lost in my plan

Others messing up the land

Making the soft dirt turn to dry sand

Ignoring the voices in my head

Making me feel so dread

Hear theses voices that I read

On the paper that I had

My dream plans make me glad

To have something still to go on

Firestone
Firestone burning the earth, the soul the spirit

That each of us have in ourselves yet we look for the one that is right

There is no right ,but the kind heart and the only wrong is the evil and cruel humor of our beings

The firestone shows us that...it burns bright in the dime sunlight

Showing us through the pain there is some kind of hope

It'll just take us a while to get through

Through the fiery smoke

The chocking acid of our poison

That has drifted deep into the ground

And if you look....you can see what we did all around

We just don't blame ourselves for such destruction

Praying to someone for the stupidity we did...asking them to save us

But, through all this....what we was giving do we truly deserver to see past this

Seek in a shell deep in the sea

Or can we really change what we can be?

Look deep ,seek peace, find hope, we say

We say lies in our hearts and blood in the soul will lay

But, if we rise what can we do

For nature is bothering you

The drama ,the trauma, karma

The firestone in our heart....make it burn out and forget the hate

Fire burns...,but water can wash away...

Are we here to go....or are we to stay?

Always There

Your always there lurking in the dark

You might smile or grin or not even say a word to me

You comfort me when I need it and want it

And you always listen to me as I do for you

Your like a brother I never had

A lover I will never have

You my pillow in the night

And a comforting whisper in my mind

Your smile and jokes make me laugh and feel good

Unlike some things in like make me feel today

We get depressed and moody together and understand each others feelings

It's kind of feels good always having you around

So I wont be so lonely laying in the dark

I follow you like a shadow....because you have always been there

Always cared and tried to do stuff for me to make me feel special

And that's what everyone should do for each other

Being around you has mad me glad

That I can feel so happy and comforted around you

You care so much and get so little

But to me you can be an idle

You push towards your goals and hope to retrieve them

As I do the same

We have tough times in life when everything is taken from us

We get rare chances to change our life

But, sometimes we mess it up more sometimes it is our best experience

We make mistakes we fix them

We try to keep things together and hope they don't fall apart

I'm your helper when your tired

Your maid when your at work

You pillow when you sleep

And your friend forever

False Love

I always seek love no matter where I am

People take advantage of it drawing me in

Saying they love me they would never hurt me

That there be there for me forever and never let me go

The same story that always seems to draw me into the stupid game

"I love you" seems to float around more when people are having sex then anything else

The sad though that people think that is love...brings tears to my eyes.

The sad sense of love and hope when I meet someone is just them wanting to sooth me up ...just to do me

The world makes me aggressive because mindless stupid people fall into the dumb circle of games

The love game...the game that twists you around you don't know what's going on

They say they want to meet you...they say they want to take care of you

But, you sadly know the truth and you turn bitter and hateful against the people that have the real thing

They hold hands‘, kiss, cuddle with each other, laugh and all that good stuff

You just turn your nose up on them and push them away

When more people ask for your hand to date you just don’t seem to care you just tell them no this and no that and they throw a fit like a childish baby

All theses things you hoped to get in a relationship of love ..you got tormented, hurt, stepped on. And even raped....

Forced into the sexual love shit that is not love at all

If a guy says that they want to show you how much they love you by fucking you. They just wanted in your pants and never really loved you...same for girls for being whores

Love a word everyone hears some believe some don't

Wonder why most people think this way

Just look at the stupid childish game they play

Not the love game oh no, but the “I love you so lets fuck game"

Love drifts out of your heart

It turns black and soon to dust

It drifts off in the cold bitter wind

While your tears turn to blood

Your soul is dieing, but you don’t care

Why keep a soft heart when everyone else is bitter towards you

You despise them want to kill them

Want to pick up that dagger and stab them repeatedly

"Love ha what a joke” you cry thinking about all the jerks that had set you up

Stood you up, stepped on your heart, made you cry for days months years even.

A broken heart isn’t pretty, but a empty black soul is worse then the rest

What is love to you....

A close friend your always with, but more...or someone you just fuck like a wild animal?

Tape On My Lips
Lips held together by tape

In a world so cruel and evil


A simple statement can turn into a racist protect


No words to offended, but only to speak mind

A poet knows no limits to words

For they express our feelings strongly

Words people call evil had been made up just to say them.....


An evil word can be said since people made them evil


Just like people made up heaven and hell

The Indians just had the creator and other beliefs


A simple whisper and people turn sour


Your an outcast out of the group of the circle


Seeking your own way of life...instead of the sheep’s way


No way is right nor wrong, but this is what I believe

Nature is explainable in ways and sometimes it is not


A poets mind is different because it sees what others can not....they think when others are afraid to


A slip of the tongue a rattle of the brains

What is the use of expression oneself if others are against your thoughts

Ignoring there judgment against you ,you simply go on....stating what you want


Ripping the tape off of all the lips that still remain silent against the world

Scared to speech there mind


Scared to be themselves

Scared to be different


I am not scared of being myself nor am I scared of being myself

Let the fire fly at my soul if you despise me.....

I am who I am and everyone else can get used to it if they dislike it


Everyone is different. Everyone has a different soul


Not everyone can be right in the world today

But, we know the good between the bad at times


The tape on the world makes it to silent


Can't silent the children who are only curious, but yet you try to make them change who they are...why?


Is it against your ways....do you think them evil?


Rip your own tape off...and let them grow up there way.....

Can't protect forever...even though you want to.....


The world is cruel and they need to learn


That not everyone is a nice person that is going to treat you nice


Growing up in a world I thought was nice...and got bombed with the evil in it


It rotten my soul to look outside

And see the world on fire

The bitter taste of the dust falling from the sky


Look at us while they die

Despise all that is different

Burning there soul for there beliefs


Kill them all if you think them wrong


But, I'll still be watching from this hill


Smiling because I seen before the others


The fire heading my way


I'll burn when it gets here, but for now lets watch

As people destroy and try to save

Save the world from themselves

Is only to destroy them

To rid the world of them all

For poisoning the earth with there filth

But, yet they replant regrow rehelp....

Confusing statement in this world...we destroy to recreate the world

Let it die and watch it burn

We deserver it for the bitter lies we told

For beaten the different with our canes

Accepting the different in a different way

With open arms I accept there opinions

I accept most of there ways

I am happy with what I see

Different living with same

There is no longer tape.....,but a line between them

[Midnight]

Again & Again I’ll Fall

Again and again I’ll fall

Into the darkness into the black call

Doing it over and over till I can’t feel anymore

To stop the pain I feel every single day

To walk in the darkness of the light

To get off the path and walk my own

More parties more hang outs

More drugs down my throat

Spinning head, intoxicated mind

More and more they feel me with

This is cool this is them

I lost myself years ago…

They kept asking so I decided to try

I been doing it since

Losing control

Doing it more and more

Give me an other drink…I don’t mind if it sting my throat

Give me an other pill so I may snort I don’t care for the burning in my nose

Give me some more pot to smoke…I don’t care that I can’t breath

I want it all I want it more

I want to lay here doing it all…doing it more


I lost control a long time ago

I can’t stop now it’s my blood, my life, my soul

So many people that I sleep with the sex the pleasure the pain

The blood as I slice my skin

The needles pricking me again
More all more not enough

I’m with the sheep….I’ll run with them

More I must have more I must take

Stealing ,killing, more money for me

More drugs more fun more stupidity in my mind

Spinning room spinning place

This is not me….look at my face

One more time I need it again

One last night…

I did it again

One last time I’ll breath again

One last time I’ll see again

One last time I’ll have pleasure again

Beat the people beat my mind

One last…one last time

I’m in to deep

I see the devil creep

Into my skin

The deadly pain

Falling to the floor…

Falling to my fate

Is this what is cool

Doing all this stuff

Not who I am, but to do to fit in

I lost my life

I lost myself

I lost my soul

I lost my difference
Where will you sit…when you see the shower of the wondering souls

Running like sheep’s in herds without a care in the world

Where will you stand…at there grave or there’s to yours?

Cold Like Burning Fire
It's cold outside

The world seems darker and curler

The shadows nip at my soul every time I walk by

Struggling to live

Struggling to find food

Struggling to find a kind soul in the world

People make fron of us

People tell jokes about us

People stare at us when we pass them on the street

A little change to spare

Instead we get a yelling person in our face

The nights get colder

We get shorter

Wondering where to sleep this night

Wondering if some kind soul would give us some money for food

Maybe spare a bit for a drink or to

To dumb the pain I feel everyday

The stares burning my soul

The cold nipping at my broken body

I have nothing left, but I struggle so much to live

No one sees to honor us or show respect

It takes a lot to live on nothing when no one really cares

Sometimes a kind soul will walk by and I’ll ask for a little change they have a bag of food with them

The smile and give me some money and hand me to bag of food

They say keep it and have a nice day

The smile at you and shake your hand...and ask for your name

Like a young angel sent into this hell

To make sure we have something else to keep us going

I might not want no pity

But I could use a friend

Someone to talk to in the cold bitter night

An angels face shinning through the darkness of this world

Eager to spare and to help my soul

Stopping to talk just for the though of making our days better

There face looks over at us. And smiles at us

You wonder if people care

You can't find jobs like most people

Some can't understand

But this angel that follows you around seems to know how you feel

She has a kind soul

A soft touch

A smiling touch

A caring heart

I see her walking down the street

She has little money in her pocket

She is hungry, but stops and looks at me at us

Takes out some money and hands it to me

Without a word she disappears

Who is this caring soul

Who is this person

That seems to care for every living soul

That seeks to help everyone else, but herself

To give others hope in there miserable life

And complain later about there own

Who is this angel that I speak of?

Hidden Dagger(The Dagger Part XII)

Hidden dagger

Hidden in a shadowed place

In a drawer hidden with the others

This one is covered in all kinds of blood

Staining the others I never use

Making them jealous ,bitter, and crule

Hidden dagger bleeds everyday

From the pain of these troubled days

So much do I wish to use it on myself

Cut it dep into my skin and fall onto the cold uncareing ground

Wishing for the brightr days

I'm not of a drugged mind like most are

I see this world as it is

With so many blade hidden in an upper drawer

Waiting and seeking to be used today

Or even the next day

Hidden dagger blade that shines

Stained in blood and all those lies

Seeking the old me though hidden words

So many tears fall as I worry my life away

Hidden dagger what should I do

I'm stuck at a road that has ended

Should I go back or should I go off that path

Seek a new light from this darkened tunnle I walk

A broken me with so many blades

Wondring on the next thing to us them on

A stupid friend

An brain washed teen

A evil soul that needs the death toll

Hidden dagger don't haunt me so

Through all this pain i'm hurting so

The past that follows the want that I seek

But all of those blade that sit in that drawer how much I wish to stab them in everybody

There words

There looks

There stupid twin trend

The sheep of the litter

The mouse of the man

The strong in the weak

And how easily people freak

I'm different

I'm a girl

I'm not scared of the outside world

I do not hide,but grip a daggr so tightly

So sick of this world so sick of this place

Seeking a magic seeking a face

Wrap me in your soft sweet grace

Save me from this disgrace

The broken girl stuck in the race

Seeking the softest lace

Hidden dagger in the dark

Staind with blood of the hidden mark

Below the devils ark

Were I seek the his evil bark

Hidden dagger be there please

Soften my mind and put it as ease

Dripping blood running down

Over the golden crown

Hidden dagger will travel throughout the evil land

Distorying all the man

Intoxicated

This world is so cold and strange

But what we see and feel we can rearrange

From the pain we have to endure today

To the simple little drugs that seem to make it all go away

It is sad to see everyone intoxicated with all these drugs

From pot to pills to drinking way to much


When we can get away from this feeling and feel alive from the cruel that there is outside

Feel the warmth that we used to when we was young

The freedom of us running around

Laughing and playing and skipping around

From all those dare devil risks we used to do

No fear from the world no fear of nothing

Not until we went to school and learn of all those horrors outside of our circle

Something some of us never wanted to be apart of

Now some of our old happy spirits are crushed and broken inside

Depression lurks around every corner

Keeping us from being happy and being the old spirit we used to be

Intoxicated now of everyone

Always drugs to feel happy…..it seems the only way to make us feel free again

Not care about the horrors out there

But here I will say now….

I never take anything to not see…just wish sometimes it wouldn’t be shown to me

The world I love can not be find in a city

But in the country the very thing I envy

The beautiful grass

The colors of the panted sky

The sounds of the glistering stream

Where all the birds come to sing

Where I feel so free

Cool and relaxed I am here

I’m intoxicated by natures wonderful gifts

Not of man and there messed up drugs

There destructive thoughts for peace to war

How many die just to not feel sad….overdosing on there happy drug

Or the sickness of the whole sex crave….

When one only seeks to be loved

Intoxicated sad they can’t see the real fun

That these things are not what can make you have fun

But, to be yourself and let your soul sore

Be different creative…

Intoxicated with your soul

Be you that is the goal


Walking Aiden

Your walking now growing so fast before my eyes. My little nephew a year old now. From being carried everywhere, crawling, now walking. So sweet to watch you grow just like my own son I watch over you. Sweet Aiden my nephew my baby walking around. Here there everywhere you go. Chasing me around the house laughing and playing with me. Your so cute and full of spirit something that keeps me going in he world. I’ll be there for you always to protect you from all the mean shits out there. Walking Aiden don’t grow so fast slow I down make it last. For theses younger years are the most magical. Hidden from all the hate safe from a worst fate. Baby Aiden getting so big smile and make your life worth while. Walking Aiden we love you so much. Little trouble maker of mine Your aunt lovers you very much a whole bunch my little advections baby walking nephew.

A Splash Of Heaven

A Splash Of Heaven

From the great heavens the rain falls

Brining the strength and goodness from the angels

A splash of water

The waters from heaven

They rain down on us to give us hope

To life our spirits and look for nature as our guide

To accept it’s power and it’s strength

Feel the light from the heaven

The cool air around you

The fresh sent intoxicating you

Of white clouds in he sky

Mighty fluffy ones

From heaven the clouds move apart

And open up a path to the angels

With fluttery white wings of magic

To the sweet sounds of there melodies

They are one of the many muses around

To inspire and lift our spirits

White of goodness and pureness

There our guardians

Our shadows in the night

The light when we can not see

A little piece of heaven falls down onto the Earth

Something to protect us all

Splashing from the waters nearby

An angel appears

The Little Splash From Heaven

A Stupid Mind

A Stupid Mind

A week mind to stupid to do things right

A week body who couldn’t fight off an attacker

So many scars all over my body

Showing you can see them….so many I wish I would of did myself

The ones inside I blame myself

To stupid to relies what I was doing

Going to a stranger house just to be tortured

All to feel loved and respected

I was wrong

Others still trying to torment my mind

Do drugs be happy so many words

Have sex be a slut….so many words

Your not good for me…so many words

I try to make everyone happy

I try to do things I want to do to succeed

But others look a me and doubt me

You Can’t do that you can’t do this
You Can’t even spell right

Your body is messed up

Your memory is fading

How I walk and fall over

Because I am falling apart

I try to keep going ignoring others

To do what I want to do to make me happy

Still others words make me stop in my tracks

You got to many things to do

Why Don’t you get a job

You need to wear make up

You need to do drugs

You need to lay down and be laid

You need to do dangerous things

Stop being so paranoid

Friends always beat there fits against me

Grow up it’s life they tell me

But then get mad when I tell them the same thing

A nice favor turns to me using them

So many people getting me things I can’t get myself makes me feel week

What happened to me

I was tortured for who I was

And for years now….

I been trying to change

I don’t make anyone happy

I try to be nice and they stab me in the back

I’m not good enough

I’m not smart enough

I can’t do theses things

So badly I try

Through all the stress and panic I go through

I still have no idea why I’m here

I should of ran a line of crimson down my arm a long time ago

But, still I go on…..
Just to be tormented more

Can’t you see my pain

Can’t you tell I try

Can’t you see your killing me

As I sit in my room

Crying because I’ll never be good enough for the world

I’m different I accept it

My weaknesses I accept them

I try to make myself stronger, better

But that just makes me fall harder

Teach me if you want

Not sure how good it’s going to be

I been this way for so long

Trying to change since then

So just lay me down

Let me lay here

Don’t care about me….

Even if I care about you

Let me suffer more…..I don’t mind

My bodies broken ,torn, shredded

But….I’ll be ok

After all

I’m just stupid


I'm Sorry Part II

I’m sorry that I am damaged

I am sorry our old landlord didn’t like my mom and kicked us out of our house

I am sorry that when I was going to still go to my old school our car broke down

I am sorry I ever moved to his town

I am sorry that I am different so you can tease me and beat me and torture me

I am sorry when I was 16 my so called best friend which is a girl held me down beat me and molested me

I am sorry I freak out around most black people they take one look at me and try to harm me

I am sorry that whites where ever mean to black people

I am sorry that you was driving to fast and hit me on purpose

I am sorry I chocked on a piece of candy when I was little so I fear swallowing pills

I am sorry that I got mad at my sister for not being disciplined and getting away with everything

I am sorry you ran a stop sign and made my imply my bike handles to my chest where there is now a crater at

I am sorry at 19 I went to a guys house to what a movie and get a message and was raped

I am sorry I have a writing problem I do my best, but I can’t get it

I am sorry I am poor and life disappoints me

I am sorry that sometimes I have a speech impediment

I am sorry I cry at night because the little girl full of life that once lived inside me has died

I am sorry I am not easy

I am sorry I am negative a lot

I am sorry that I am in this drama all the time

I am sorry I do not do drugs

I am sorry I do not drink

I am sorry I am not a whore

I am sorry I do not do pills

I am sorry that I am scared of cars for the last car crash almost killed me

I am sorry for yelling at you for being stupid

I am sorry I can not stand life anymore

I am sorry this city has killed my soul

I am sorry that I can’t never reach my goals

I am sorry that my sister’s ex boyfriend tried to force himself on me

I am sorry that my friend tried to do the same thing

I am sorry I am so bitter against love

I am sorry your wasting your life

I am sorry for caring about you when you do drugs

I am sorry when you break my heart

I am sorry a times I wish to die

I am sorry someone broke into my house trying to kill my family

I am sorry that every night I would stay up for fear of that jerk breaking into our house

I am sorry I missed so much school

I am sorry that my life is like that

I am sorry I want to move, but this life isn’t for me

I am sorry that I was ever born

I am sorry….that I am alone

A Perfect World

Image a perfect world

Where the air is clean

The sky is blue

The water is fresh

And everything is perfect

You live in peace and harmony forever

You never have to suffer through drama

Nature is a wonderful thing where life spreads

Your forever free from the stupid stuff today

The grass is smooth and soft under your feet

The wind takes your breath away

Wild animals run free

None goes extinct

Everything is here we already need

Where the air is always warm

The days are sunny and clear and the nights are dark and sparkly

You feel tingly and warm

And you are forever happy

You never have to cry a tear

You never feel pain

You never have to worry

You never have to suffer

The trees are green and bright

The birds sing of spring

The flowers bloom

The Earth is full of life

The smell is so wonderful

Everything is a pleasure to touch

You never have to worry to much

Not at all

For we never fall

Life goes by day after day

And forever will stay

In perfect harmony

The perfect life

The life people don’t see

That we can make

Make us believe

Believe that everything

Everything is ok

Ok to walk down the dirt path

The path that heals us

Us that can be good

Good to the world

The sparkling miracles of the universe

The sun the moon the planets

The spiral galaxies

The dots of color

The magic of creation

The great wonders of perfect

Where life is perfect

Tutonka

The plans they roam

The come with a sound of thunder

Like an earth quake that shakes the ground

Like a river they can be seen for miles and miles

How can a huge mass so big disappear for so long

As the Sioux sing here song to call them

They quickly speed from up under the ground and appear over the lands

To give life to the Indian nations

There fur for warmth

There bones for weapons and jewelry

There flesh to feed and give life

Feel there Earth shake

Here they come up over the hills

Spreading like wild fire over the lands

Come wild beast


Come feed the land

Oh mighty buffalo

Come onto the ands once again

Give life with your greatness

As the Sioux sing there song

Come running mighty buffalo

Come and shake the ground

Your sounds of mighty thunder gives hope to the land

It is music to there ears

The great creature calls for you now

Come mighty buffalo come here there song


The Burning Sun

A small voice buts in to talk to you

You get to meet him

He asks you out you say yes

He takes you out on dates

You tell him your damaged and your inexperienced

He said ok and wanted to try with you

Then a day comes when you get around to doing things

Your inexperienced comes to a shock to him

He dumps you…and refuses to talk to you say you can reply

You feel down mad and aggregated

You thought he was the one

A nice soul to get you out of the house bring your spirits you and have faith in life

But, it was all a trick a false allusion

You let your guard down yet again

Tried to trust in someone not to hurt you

But, you opened up and you got burnt

Burnt by the burning sun

Why does people act so selfish and only try to please themselves and give others false hope?

I really thought this one was it

I was wrong and I got burnt

Burnt by the burning sun

Why must I be so stupid….

I been hurt so many times

Stabbed in the back….so many times

Burnt by the burning sun

So many times

I become bitter against this world people seek called love

With the allusion of it is sex

The biggest thing that seems to matter to everyone in a relationship

And you are outcaste because of some things that happened to you. You had no control over

Yet you was burnt by the burning sun

Tears of rage and anger and sadness falls down

You knew this would happen

You knew his wouldn’t last

But, yet you hopped….hopped so much it ached inside

But you was burnt…by the burning sun

And now you trying struggling to get back up at the top again

Fighting the burning sun

From Friends To Lovers : Made On 5-17-08 at 1:48 am

We started out as friends in school

And went to something more

I know I am still timid from being hurt in the past

But I know you would never hurt me

Hanging out with you through all this years has been fun and a great blast

Glad to finally find one guy who doesn’t mind going at a slow pace with things

You’re a great guy and fun to be around

You make me smile and laugh almost all the time

I enjoy your cooking and you caring about me like you do

I enjoy your mom bringing us food all the time so we wont be hungry

Thanks for keeping me company when I am down and sad

I enjoy the back rubs you give me

And I don’t mind doing the same for you

Glad we been friends all this time as well

Even if you had always told me you liked me
Or even thought I was hot

Sorry before that I kept saying no

I had been hurt be so many before I was scared of an other friend becoming the enemy

Now I am not so scared anymore with you

We never got in a fight or argument

So I’ll know we’ll be just fine

Enjoy cuddling with you

We when say

“I Love You”

Three Boys:Made on 5-17-08 2:03 am

There theses three boys I love very much

One is very hyper active and loves to go outside and play and bugs me to stay

His a little boy years of like 8

Simple smiles make me smile back at him

Ruffling his hair I’ll tell him I’ll be back

Because I love him….My little brother

The other is as loud as could be screaming out in a cute little baby voice and grinning like a drunk up at me

Chewing as if he never ate before on my fingers

Making it tickle because he mostly got gums

Little boy of 6 months

Giggling, grinning, clinging onto me…

Because I love him….My baby brother

Third is a job of work….hyper little kid….

Can go 100 miles per hour….

Running around the house away from me

Laughing like a mad man and running like a drunk

Into the walls

Hiding behind the sofa

Oh I see you!!!!

He stays laughing harder

Picking him up I cling to him

Hey little boy

What yah doing

Still laughing like a mad man now crawling around on me…

Sitting him down I chase him around the house

Laughing baby get back here

Can’t hide from me

I’m going to get you

Little Man of 16 Months

Hyper active speed demon

Because I love Him My Baby Nephew

Back AT The Same Spot:Made At 5-17-08 at 2:26 am

Why does it always lead to this one spot….

The same spot I been running from for years

The trauma the pain

All around me making me crazy

I want to die

At least get away from here

Why wont something let me go

Unchain the chains around me

Let me fly let me get away

I sit here staring at all these sharp things

Thinking about it all again

Wondering how I still go on

How I still take it

When I know my mind is fallen apart

I go mad get into fights

Get bruises and cry

I can’t help it I been there before

So much the same that keeps happening

Once I see it I go insane

What’s a life worth living when the drama comes and comes and comes again

Why can’t it disappear and leave me alone

What did I ever do to have this repeat in my life

Look at all the lovely knifes

How sharp and shinny they are

Thoughts of them dripping with blood

Blood that is mine I cut myself with

Because the repeat in my life has gone for 9 years to long

Avoid it?

I try to

Get away

I try to

Get help?

I try to

Nothing is as easy as it sounds or looks anymore

Life’s a repeat

A broken soul

A wounded thing….

That seems to break and break and break some more

Spinning around and around and around

Blood dripping onto the ground

A girl that is trying to get out

She rather die then go through it again

An other pain and she goes mad again

Pain shots up and flows all through her

Don’t you see she’s trapped

She’s trying to get away

But all she seems to go is around and around

Let her get away

Let her fly

Let her keep the happiness she seeks in all life around her

The nature she longs to touch

The wild she longs to run in

Away from all the modern things of man

Destroying what she really cares about

Nature and life….

Life away from the pain

Longing to run free without fear

Will you help her get away

Help her find a better place

Maybe a fluffy cloud in the sky

Will she float up onto it?

Or drown in a sea of red blood

Or tears she shredded for fear

Fear of it all happening again

Fear of the past to keep repeating itself

A paranoid traumatic girl

Who has gone through so much pain
Will you help heal her

Help her become the old spirit she used to be

The one she seeks in the middle of her bedroom floor

Staring at all her sharp knifes

Letting herself bleed to death

Will you let her….

Help her….

Free….

Her Soul?


Your All Still Here :Made on June 5th 2:30 am
Your Still Here

I miss you so very much

Your big brown eyes staring up at me

The slow human like smile I see when your at the edge of my bed

The simple patter of your tail against the floor

Slow movement of your paws onto my bed

You’re a big baby that knows I’ve been sad

Your gone, but you’re here

I think to watch over me

It’s been a few months and I’ll still call your name

When I lay all lonely in my bed in the middle of the night

When I can’t sleep because I’m sitting there looking at the foot of my bed

Sometimes I swear I feel you next to me

Your warm body against mine

Your soft head laying across my stomach

And my hand seems to find your head brushing against it slowly

Smiling in my sleep because you’re my protector
My little baby at my side

Always with me to protect me

Watching over me wherever I go

Oh how I cried over you

You where my baby and I miss you so

I still call for you in the middle of the night

Just to feel your warm fuzzy body against mine

The small patter of your tail against my bed

Showing me that your happy and that I can know your there

Your not the only one I still see around

The simple old girl still lays in the hallway

Resting in a corner keeping it warm

Scared to trip over the old girl as I’m passing by

Pure black coat I’ll miss for the years and old family member that’s been with us for years

Oh sweet girl I hope your in a better place

I hope your not suffering anymore with your old age

I sill swear I see you when I know your gone to
My other old baby I’ll miss as well

The brown of your eyes

The wag of your tail

The growling of play when you was having fun

The warm body up against me during a thunder storm

For whoever had you first didn’t treat you very nice

Oh old girl rest now you deserver it

I’ll be ok

Lay down and rest now

But, not just theses two I see and feel now

But three ramped cats playing in the house

I still here them running back and forth

Simple smile on my face as I listen to them play late at night in the hallway

I still feel them on my body when they sleep

The two little kittens keeping warm under my shirt

And he big protective boy sleeping up against my head

I know your all gone, but I swear your still here

All of you to watch over us

But there is more…much more then these

A little small pit bull saved from he cruel of fighting and beating

Shaking body laying next to me at night

Poor thing was scared to death

Followed me everywhere

Even though he ate the house apart

Had him for a little bit, but I hope his ok

Simple dog I will miss you

But yet an other to remember

For he was a protector from the fire

A big black shadow following us home

The black coat hidden from us

Till the mornings light when we saw you on our door step

You made yourself our guard dog

Barking at anyone strange that came near the house

Oh black bit bull how I love you so
I still feel your warm body up against mine at night

A small growl while you sleep

As you chase the ghosts away

But two more now I see a simple black ca meowing at me

Used to water it takes a bath with me

Nipping my toes when I ignore you so

Laying on the keyboard when you want more attention

Oh how I miss you silly cat

I could wear you like a fur around my neck

And your still hear all of you in my bed

In the house protecting me

Protecting us all

And yet an other one

Venus so pretty goddess

How your pretty colors kept me company

Your soft fur kept me clam

And the simple purr making me smile

I miss you all and I still see you here

Maxey baby my dog my boy

How the kids treated you poorly

I know you didn’t mean it I spooked you I know it

Damn those kids for making you mean

I kill those little dicks for hurting you I mean

Trespassing through our yard throwing things at you

Kicking at the gate and teasing you go

And damn those neighbors for ramping the gate

Only you and your mother had little time to get in the dog house

For when e came back from out of town

We came to a crashed gate that a car ran through

Some as parked in our drive way and tried to kill you

Poor maxi baby I’ll miss you

I know I tripped and you bit me so

We had to get ride of you for attacking everyone

Damn those kids for cursing you so

I’m sorry my baby I love you and I still see you

As my dog my protector

Sleeping in my bed your warm body against mine

Yet an other sad story of young mind

A young kitty was given to me as a gift

Poor zayin you wasn’t ready to leave your mother yet

You refused to eat and s you died

Your meows still haunt me at night

When I got the call of a friend that was trying o help you

On the four of July you died…my kitty cat


And yet….one more sad one for the books

When I got off the bus you wasn’t there

Sitting at the stop waiting for me

You always waited for me

You followed me everywhere

Small dog where did you go

Stupid kids killed you so
Tossed you body in he river

Cruel boys didn’t tell me so

I lost a dear friend that day after school

Coming home crying because I know something happened to you

Sad stories about all of you….

Had to give you away because of the demons on this planet

I’ll miss you so

My babies

My pets

My protector

My friends

On more I almost forgot

The first cat we ever got

Sleep well my princess under the stars

For I do not know where you are

I Don't Love You Anymore(posted on 820-08 at 1:40 pm)


I don’t love you anymore

You don’t show love to me which makes me sore

You keep making my face hit against the floor

While you say you love me and beg me for more

How can I love you

When your never around

How can I hug you when your as stupid as a clown

Doing things over and over when you know they hurt me

Why can’t you see your making me sick

Your pushing me away

Your smoothing me with false words

Ones I heard over a billion times

You love me….

He changed

She’s changing

If you only knew

I know what’s going on…..

And I don’t love you anymore

I really need to make you understand

But instead you’re a bitch and misunderstand me

You treat me like shit…and to everyone else eyes

But your own you treat me just fine….

Which to me make me feel like crying

You never really ever shown me you cared

Always burning my hopes and dreams with your stupid little voice fluttering around in my mind


But now a job I have found….

You wont be putting my face to the ground

You pushed me away and that is where I am going

Moving away from this awful place you kept me in for so long….

You say you hate it to, but that is just a lie….

Then tell me….

Why would you stay here so long….

And let me get treated so bad….

Yeah like I said….

I don’t love you anymore

You pushed my face up against the floor

Smoothing me with false hope and dreams

The biggest lie….I ever hear

Is I love you

I miss you

I worry about you

I am checking in

Seeing if your ok……

I don’t need you mother….

I am my own mother and father inside of myself….

Acting older then you or your other daughter

The one you give so much hope in….

The one you put so much faith in

The one you spoiled that turned into a filthy little whore

The one that steals off us when you open the door

The one that makes a mess and you tell me to clean it

The one that does drugs like you…..right in front of my face

I don’t love you anymore

You never have any respect for me

Even when I clean the house and ask for a little recondition

But all you did when I get home or you get home…

Is bitch at me till your face turns blue….

So yes I don’t love you anymore….

I suffer pain…anger….and loneliness

But that’s ok…I’m used to being alone….

Always alone….

When you left me to die….

While you went to go play with some guy…..



Keys :Made on 2-23-09 on 8:49)
Keys unlock the secrets and lies
Keys to homes, to gardens, to locks, to souls
So many things we wish to lock away
Hidden for some curious souls to unlock one day
Smiles for the adventures you see love
The click of the keys you here with your ears
Writing the mysterious we love so dear
Keys of the world we keep so near
Lock away even some of our fear
The monsters the members we have so much
The keys to safes and such
The skeleton ones we wear around our necks
Jingle and a jangle there
Odd ones we find around
Wonders to seek what they go to
Keys here
Keys there
Keys everywhere
Big ones
Small ones
Funny shaped ones
Old ones
New ones
Keys of the world
Unlock the trails
Unlock the magic
Unlock the mystery
Keys
Keys will unlock
Everything

Merry Christmas :made on 3-23-09 8:59)
Merry Christmas girls and boys
Under the Christmas tree with lots of toys
The thought of love is in thought
Giving id s joy to receive
For the thought id what counts
But some take this time out of context
It is about love with friends and family
Spending time in each others company
For it is the greatest gift for any
Beside the crakling fire
Till the midnight hour
To the dinner
From the snowflacks falling to the ground
From the spirit all around
Merry Christmas from me to you
So many things for us to do
Get dressed
Get in a car
Take off
Drive to them
In time it’ll die
Along with the spirit from the try
Everyone disappears in the end
And all I can do is cry
I miss the joy
I miss my family
I miss everything
Now I hate holidays
Like a bad day
I have everyday

Ove and Over Again (2-16-10)
Come in
Clock in
Stalk cart
Knock on door
Open door
Strip beds
Get the towels
Throw the trash away
Put stuff back into the rooms
Clean mirrors
Make beds
clean bathroom
Dust room
Vacuum room
Open curtains
Check lights
Turn tv off
Shut door
Move on
Next room
Over and over
Day after day
Same thing
Sometimes better
Sometimes worse
This is my job
The job of a maid
Will you show me the respect I desever
Or make the room a mess
So tired am I
I been up all day
Clean clean
Clean all day
Go home and do the same
Then eat
Sleep
Start again
Say thank you
Leave us a not
Maybe a tip of some kind
This is the life
Life of a maid
Making rooms day after day
From 6 to 10
10 to 13
13 to 18
Some many rooms
Please don't rush me
I can only go so fast
House keeping
Next door


For My Brother


I know you don't know me

But I know you

The world took you away from me

But I can see you in my dreams

I know I don't know what you look like

But I have a good idea

You rest your head on that magic rain cloud

Float away to a better place far away from here

I cry all the time thinking about you

But in my heart I'll belong to you

Rest now my brother be free and fly away

I'll be here holding your tiny hands guilding you

I love you Luka I wont never forget you

Even though I haven't meet you

I always know who you are and where your be

Float in the sky and enjoy the day

Theres nothing much I can say

But Luka go and play

Have fun up in those clouds

I'll meet you one day